The Most Compelling Depictions of Depression on Screen

In the first season of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, singer and actress Rachel Bloom (playing the clever and arguably neurotic “ex-girlfriend” Rebecca Bunch) sings “I’m In a Sexy French Depression.” In the song, Bloom lampoons the many hyper-romanticized depictions of depression that exist on screen.

Bloom’s music video looks like a scene from Michelangelo Antonioni’s La Notte (1961) or Joann Sfar’s The Lady in the Car with Glasses and a Gun (2015), and it echoes the phenomenon of mental illness FOMO that exists online. Most who have interacted with Instagram, Facebook, or TikTok are aware of the proliferation of mental health self-diagnosing, a trend that is fueled by glorified depictions of depression and Gen Z’s tendency to mordantly embrace hardships.

Identifying the line between harmfully glamorized depression (and subsequent self-diagnoses) and authentic mental health advocacy can be surprisingly tricky to identify: depression looks differently from person to person. And more importantly, a cry for attention may be fueled by a genuine need for help. (Arguably, there is no such thing as just a “cry for attention”; usually, those who are most difficult to love are those who need love the most.) Nonetheless, the distinction between romanticized mental illness and genuine mental struggles is an important one.

In “Politics and the English Language,” author George Orwell discusses the dangers of misusing language: “Most people who bother with the matter at all would admit that the English language is in a bad way. . . .” Orwell argues that we have abused language to the point that some words no longer have any practical meaning, and evidence of this is everywhere. Consider the current political landscape in America: Does the word “freedom” mean anything to you anymore? Or is it simply a buzzword that politicians of all types use in speeches and advertisements to appeal to the amorphous and fickle sensibilities of voters? If it is the latter, then we have stripped the word of practical value. If anyone can invoke freedom for any cause, regardless of logic or intent, then freedom means very little.

My contention is that we are in danger of doing the same thing to words like “depression,” “anxiety,” and “mental illness.” And this will have serious consequences: We cannot effectively help those who suffer from depression and anxiety unless we believe that depression and anxiety are real medical conditions—not simply words tossed about for sympathy and clout.

Thankfully, Orwell offers a solution: “. . . one can choose—not simply accept—the phrases that will best cover the meaning, and then switch round and decide what impression one’s words are likely to make on another person.” Put simply, we should choose our words carefully, and we should be conscious of the impact that our words have on others.

Which brings us back to Rachel Bloom. Visual depictions of mental illness can be just as damaging as the FOMO-fueled romanticized self-diagnoses that exist in text online, so we need to be careful about which depictions of depression we absorb.

Luckily, some visual depictions of depression are brilliant, nuanced, and profound. Luckily, cinematic depictions of depression exist beyond the sterilized European melancholy (AKA sad “soft swindle chic“) of sexy French depressions.

Below are ten of the most compelling depictions of depression on screen.


If you or someone you know is going through a tough time, please reach out for help. There are resources available to provide support:


10. Disco Elysium (2019) pub. ZA/UM

Disco Elysium is the only video game on this list, and it has more than earned its spot.

Disco Elysium is a isometric RPG that showcases the complex and chaotic story of Lieutenant Harrier “Harry” Du Bois and his attempts to solve a mysterious murder while navigating a state of drug-induced amnesia. The game’s oil-painting art style is breathtaking, and the soundtrack—both sad and exciting—provides the perfect tone for exploring the impoverished district of Martinaise within the fictional city of Revachol.

On some level, that setup is enough to justify Disco Elysium‘s place on this list. As Reddit user demonru says:

[Disco Elysium] helps me cope. I played it through twice during a month, during a terrible depressive episode and it’s deeply comforting to me. I relate to the main character on some level, the world engulfs me, the entire game is familiar and one of the kindest things I’ve encountered in my episodes. The aftertaste of the game is, to me, one of the best things about it. Listening to the soundtrack transports me to Revachol, which feels like a place I’ve lived in, and the resolution to the case and a certain subplot is just so satisfying. You put so many hours in and in the end, it’s all worth it. It’s an euphoric and engaging experience. I love it so much. I haven’t experienced it outside of a deep depressive episode yet.

But Disco Elysium goes further: the game’s mechanics explore the dark complexities of the human mind. One of the game’s key mechanics is its Thought Cabinet, which operates like a perk system for Harry’s psyche. Certain in-game decisions and conversation choices can unlock thoughts that, when “internalized,” give Harry specific buffs (or de-buffs, depending on your perspective). The Thought Cabinet is a visualized web of your character’s most notable and intimate thoughts—and the gameplay-relevant impacts of those thoughts. For example, here is the description of the Precarious World thought, which makes successes easier but offers a significant penalty while internalizing:

How not to lose? It is impossible not to. The world is balanced on the edge of a knife. It’s a game of frayed nerves. You’re pushed on by numbers and punitive measures: pain, rejection, and unpaid bills. You can either play or you can crawl under a boat and waste away — turn into salt or a flock of seagulls. Your enemies would love that. Or you can fight. The only way to load the dice is to keep on fighting.

And the Bow Collector thought, which gives you a +3 to Shivers, a skill that enhances Harry’s ability to intuit the zeitgeist and history of Revachol:

It’s early in the morning. The world is dark blue. The sparks light her face. A delicate composition of triangles. The street seems to grow longer, like in a dolly zoom. And there’s something in the air as you stand there and wave back at the shape growing smaller and smaller. Something that has always been there. A great see-through world. The tenderness you feel. The ghost of Revachol between you, carrying your signals. The holy messenger.

And this is the description of the White Mourning thought, which prompts a conversation with the Ancient Reptilian Brain, a personification of the most primal instincts lurking within the Harry’s subconscious:

…and the little guy gets smaller and smaller as you rise above the doll house world. You see him out in the snow, on the streets, in the shop on the corner, and, finally, in a matchbox house. Sitting by the window, white flowers on the window sill. You can smell them from up here: it’s awful. A white mourning. A modern death. Divorce, or something similar. All you can do is put more distance between you and him, make him smaller. Make him less you.

Another mechanic involves the skill options, which allow players to put points into one of four branches: Intellect, Psyche, Physique, and Motorics. Intellect skills, for example, include Logic, Encyclopedia, Rhetoric, Drama, Conceptualization, and Visual Calculus. And the Psyche skills are Volition (moral compass), Inland Empire (imagination), Empathy, Authority, Esprit De Corps (police mind), and Suggestion (inception/persuasion).

The mechanics, plus the gameplay itself, create a multifaceted gaming experience that explores the dark, complex subtleties of the human mind, including the possibility of depression. Disco Elysium is not the only game to depict the nuances of depression and mental health, but it is certainly one of the most compelling.

Consider how writer Logan Taylor introduces the game in his article “The Revolutionary Mind: Disco Elysium as Scale Model of Human Thought”:

There is a terror inherent to being human. We know, at all times, that some kind of pain awaits us in the future, likely not too far away. And despite this, we move forward with our lives, sometimes gleefully skating full-speed into that waiting pain. We force our way through, or at least try, and if things go well, find ourselves on the other side of it, with more in the future. It is noble to keep carrying on in the face of that. This is one of the theses of Disco Elysium.

9. Euphoria (2019-2026) created by Sam Levinson

Euphoria is a problematic show—for so many reasons. First, as YouTuber Final Girl Digital explains, viewers should be consciously wary of the “adult casting decisions” that were “often exploited and used to merely showcase the teenage characters in highly eroticized scenarios.” Second, the show romanticizes an already widespread brand of teenage nihilism that effectively nullifies any drive to better the world. Finally—and most importantly for this list—Euphoria often teeters between usefully raw depictions of mental illness and damagingly glamorized portrayals of depression. In its worst moments, Euphoria fuels the harrowing trend of mental illness FOMO and self-diagnoses that saturates the Instagram and TikTok story marketplace. Mental health awareness is beneficial, but fame-chasing self-diagnoses are certainly not.

For those reasons, I highlight Euphoria with significant hesitation; however, I do want to acknowledge the profound depictions of depression (and more) woven into Zendaya’s Rue Bennett. This is Rue’s description of a depressive episode:

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. The other thing about depression is it kind of collapses time. Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together to create one endless and suffocating loop. So you find yourself trying to remember the things that made you happy. But slowly, your brain begins to erase every memory that ever brought you joy. And eventually, all you can think about is how life has always been this way. And will only continue to be this way. I had a therapist once who said that these states will wax and wane. Which gave my mother relief because it meant that, in the bad times, there would be good times. But it also gave her anxiety because it meant that, in the good times, there would be bad times. It always confused me because I didn’t really know what it meant. But it did sound a lot calmer than the way I would describe it. Granted, I didn’t realize until later what waxing and waning implied. That these feelings were fixed and constant and would never end for the rest of my life.

This is a powerful monologue, no doubt, but Euphoria‘s most impressive contribution to depression-focused discourse is its occasionally nuanced approach to interpersonal interactions. Rue’s depression is on its most intriguing display when it is not the focus of the narrative. Because in those more subtle moments, Rue’s depression-informed actions are most relatable. In real life, depression can be surprisingly difficult to identify, and friends understandably struggle to know when (and how) to intervene. Bustle‘s Gretchen Smail explains this phenomenon as it exists in Euphoria:

Rue shows all the symptoms of going through manic and depressive states, but because bipolar disorder is so misunderstood — and its effects are sometimes subtle — her friends and family simply think she’s having a rough time. . . . Even Lexi, who’s grown up with Rue and knows her well, seems to realize Rue isn’t OK, but she isn’t sure exactly what’s going on.

And, notably, these interpersonal nuances exist against a backdrop of adolescence. Despite the show’s many (arguably foolish and troublesome) attempts to paint high schoolers as fully developed adults, Rue remains wholly immature. Rue is not the worldly sage she pretends to be; instead, she is a child who desperately wants love, acceptance, and stability. Watching the show with this in mind enhances the tragedy and meaning of Rue’s journey. Her nihilistic outlook is not simply the result of negative experience: it is the result of clinical depression—a chemical imbalance in her brain. Rue is not broken: she is sick. And she has so much time left to heal, which makes her aggressive cynicism incredibly distressing. Sofia Siqueira of The Scribe explains further:

Because she believes that she’s “too far gone,” Rue projects her dejection onto loved ones, advising them to give up on her as she has already given up on herself. Her unsparing words are no different than knives when she circles the town to verbally attack and sink every relationship she had formed since childhood. These actions are reflective of the fact that at the end of the day, Rue is just a child. Yes, she had an early and onerous introduction to substances, one that most viewers can only sympathize with. However, these experiences did not make her more mature. In actuality, they created an immense gap between what Rue is like at a normal state and a drugged one. She’s reserved and hesitant to share her emotions most of the time, and yet when she’s using, she transforms into a walking time bomb that will strike everyone with her unfiltered thoughts, many of which are heightened by her corrupted state of mind.

8. A Fantastic Woman (2017) dir. Sebastián Lelio

A Fantastic Woman is a Chilean film about the social and emotional struggles of a young trans woman after the death of her partner. A Fantastic Woman‘s value as a cinematic depiction of depression is less about overt nods to mental health and more about a visual and narrative exploration of deep grief, loss, and internal struggle. Consider this excerpt from Sheila O’Malley’s review of the film:

Lelio approaches this material with sensitivity and empathy. There’s restraint in his style, eloquent as it is. He weaves in elements from melodrama, from noir. Marina discovers a mysterious key in Orlando’s possessions, and her quest to discover what the key might unlock, makes up a large sequence of the film. “A Fantastic Woman” is filled with color, lights shifting from red to green to blue to yellow, bodies bathing in light, drowning in shadows. It’s an amorphous world, the borderline between night and day, consciousness and unconsciousness, is blurred. Cinematographer Benjamín Echazarreta has placed Vega at the center of every frame, her face, the back of her neck, her full body. She walks the streets of Santiago. Sometimes she is viewed from behind, sometimes she is viewed from across the street, the camera moving with her as she walks past a construction site, or along a block of storefronts. She is usually alone in the frame. Santiago often appears emptied-out of people in “A Fantastic Woman.” These choices suggest Marina’s isolation, as well as her vulnerable visibility. It’s like she’s a walking target.

For many, experiencing prolonged depression or anxiety is like walking through life with bubble-wrap over their eyes: everything is distorted. Day-to-day moments become a terraqueous mess of threats and emotional weight. And any true obstacles become exceedingly difficult to overcome.

As I read O’Malley’s review of Sebastián Lelio’s film, I was reminded of how Annie Proulx’s writes about her protagonist Quoyle in her novel The Shipping News:

Nothing was clear to lonesome Quoyle. His thoughts churned like the amorphous thing that ancient sailors, drifting into arctic half-light, called the Sea Lung; a heaving sludge of ice under fog where air blurred into water, where liquid was solid, where solids dissolved, where the sky froze and light and dark muddled.

To be depressed or anxious is to be simultaneously certain and confused. To be both aimless and destined for danger. “O, full of scorpions is my mind, dear wife!” says Shakespeare’s Macbeth. And I think both Marina and Quoyle can empathize.

A Fantastic Woman explores the psychological impacts of isolation, and it does so in a way that honors the unique struggles of its multifaceted and compelling protagonist.

7. After Life (2019-2022) created by Ricky Gervais

I have complicated feelings about Ricky Gervais. He’s a transphobic joke-teller who masquerades as an enlightened prophet. And many people have complicated feelings about this show. Like Euphoria, there are valid reasons to avoid After Life. Many of the show’s scenes can feel pedantic, and some characters are shamefully two-dimensional.

That said, After Life explores the self-destructive nature of some depressive experiences with a surprising amount of nuance. In the first episode, we learn that Tony (played by Gervais) has lost his wife, and this loss has sparked a particularly apathetic brand of depression. Tony says:

If I become an arsehole, and I do and say what the f*** I want for as long as I want, and then when it all gets too much, I can always k*** myself. It’s like a superpower.

Self-harm can be frustratingly difficult to discuss, so Tony’s sardonic honesty is counterintuitively refreshing.

Remember: studies consistently show that discussing self-harm does not increase the likelihood of self-harm. In fact, one study reveals that “talking about suicide may in fact reduce, rather than increase suicidal ideation, and may lead to improvements in mental health in treatment-seeking populations.”

And depression and self-harm are widespread. No one is alone. From a 2022 study:

  • 22.5 million (8.8%) adults in the U.S. experienced major depression.
  • 4.8 million (19.5%) kids aged 12-17 experienced major depression.
  • 3.6 million (14.6%) kids aged 12-17 experienced severe depression.
  • 13.2 million (5.2%) adults had suicidal thoughts.
  • 3.8 million (1.5%) adults made suicide plans.

So maybe a bit of blunt honesty is a good thing. Sometimes, it’s nice to strip away all of the harmfully romanticized sophistry that permeates social media conversations about mental health. Just speak plainly. Depression is the worst. F**k suicide.

6. Thunderbolts* (2025) dir. Jake Schreier

In an article published by Psychology Today, Aaron Brinen, Psy.D., calls Thunderbolts* a “masterpiece.” Brinen writes:

Movies can deliver complex messages in the form of allegory (a story that with a hidden, symbolic meaning). But I never expected Marvel’s Thunderbolts* to be a near-perfect representation of mental illness. Specifically, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), associated disorders, and how cognitive behavioral therapy helps someone recover. The movie anthropomorphizes (gives human form to) the elements we address (literally, they fight) in treatment. Finally, the movie shines a light on the fact that we all have our struggles and that it is OK. . . . The Thunderbolts* is a collection of failed anti-heroes and focuses on Yelena, an ex-assassin. They are confronted with a mysterious ex-addict, Bob. He was given superpowers but holds immense darkness inside him, driven by memories of severe abuse and associated problems. When he was changed, his internal darkness destroyed everything. While this can figuratively be the case in mental illness, in this Marvel movie, it’s literal.

Some have challenged the film’s portrayal of depression—writer Tasha Robinson argues that the movie “misses one big issue with depression, the aspect of the movie that most made me shrink in my seat in the theater: the sense of shame that comes with needing this kind of help, and with putting this much weight and demand on other people”—but most critics and moviegoers concur: Thunderbolts* offers an intriguing and mostly effective allegory of mental illness.

And though I don’t think Thunderbolts* is Marvel’s most compelling depiction of depression (as you’ll see below), I agree.

5. Haider (2014) dir. Vishal Bhardwaj

Any cinematic adaptation of William Shakespeare’s Hamlet could be on this list. Perhaps Shakespeare’s most famous depressive (though there is considerable competition for that title), Hamlet struggles with his inner demons with a level of nuance and intentionality that few other literary characters have been able to replicate: “O that this too too solid flesh would melt, / Thaw, and resolve itself into a dew! / Or that the Everlasting had not fix’d / His canon ‘gainst self-slaughter! […] But break, my heart; for I must hold my tongue.”

All filmed versions of Hamlet—or at least all that are true to the story—showcase Hamlet’s depression. From David Tennant’s sharply expressive Hamlet to Ethan Hawke’s mumblecore Hamlet to Mel Gibson’s surprisingly unoffensive Hamlet to Kenneth Branagh’s perfectly multifaceted Hamlet, every actor has offered a unique flavor of the Prince of Denmark. In Haider, Shahid Kapoor’s Haider (Hamlet) showcases the belligerent energy of Hamlet’s frustrated state of mind. Many people equate depression with passivity and low energy—and those can be symptoms of depressive episodes—but depression is not always quiet or still. Research is still evolving, but some studies have linked depression with higher possibilities of violence. This does not mean that those suffering from depression are inherently violent. It also does not meant that violence is an acceptable way to cope with depression. What this does mean is that depression is a complex illness, and it manifests in different ways in different people.

Some depressives shrink. Others explode.

Vishal Bhardwaj’s Haider explores this dynamic beautifully.

4. BoJack Horseman (2014-2020) created by Raphael Bob-Waksberg

Some may be tired of articles that highlight depictions of troublesome, moody men, and that is valid. BoJack Horseman‘s Rick and Morty-esque embrace of sardonic nihilism is enough to make skeptical would-be viewers avoid Raphael Bob-Waksberg’s show about a washed-up 90s sitcom star who processes conflict by drinking, manipulating, and self-imploding. As a character, BoJack is more than troublesome: his behavior is appalling and occasionally criminal.

But there are two reasons why I include BoJack Horseman on this list: 1) the show often acknowledges and admonishes BoJack’s abhorrent behavior as part of the narrative—BoJack [spoilers] ends the series in prison “for breaking and entering and probably for everything else too”—and 2) BoJack’s depiction of depression is particularly compelling. Much more compelling than the depictions of mental illness we see from characters like Rick Sanchez.

In the season four episode “Stupid Piece of Sh*t,” we see (not for the first time) a glimpse into BoJack’s self-loathing mind:

Piece of sh*t. Stupid piece of sh*t. You’re a real stupid piece of sh*t. But I know I’m a piece of sh*t. That at least makes me better than all the pieces of sh*t that don’t know they’re pieces of sh*t. Or is it worse? . . . Yeah, it is, you stupid piece of sh*t. You’re a real stupid piece of sh*t, and everywhere you go, you destroy people. Of course your mother never loved you, what do you expect? That’s why Sarah Lynn died, that’s why Charlotte will never forgive you.

Those who have experienced depression can likely empathize, to some degree, with BoJack’s self-hating worldview. Many people have moments of heightened insecurity or low self-esteem, but for those who experience depression, their warped sense of self often operates as a seemingly permanent lens that colors all aspects of day-to-day life. It’s a stubborn, pervasive perspective that attaches itself like a parasite to all other thoughts. Moreover, it doesn’t feel like self-doubt: it feels like truth. It feels like a reality that the rest of world will see if they bother to look. Consider these lines from BoJack:

You know, sometimes I think I was born with a leak, and any goodness I started with just slowly spilled out of me and now it’s all gone. And I’ll never get it back in me. It’s too late. Life is a series of closing doors, isn’t it?

But the writers of BoJack Horseman don’t stop there: they show, with surprising nuance, how BoJack’s self-loathing nihilism negatively impacts those around him.

In one episode, BoJack’s “friend” Todd challenges BoJack’s self-pity:

You can’t keep doing this! You can’t keep doing shitty things, and then feel bad about yourself like that makes it okay! You need to be better! […] You are all the things that are wrong with you. It’s not the alcohol, or the drugs, or any of the shitty things that happened to you in your career, or when you were a kid. It’s you. All right? It’s you.

Self-loathing can be unfathomably painful, but depression is not an excuse for casual cruelty.

3. Moonlight (2016) dir. Barry Jenkins

I want to be upfront about the complexities of listing Moonlight as a film about depression: 1) no characters—including the protagonist Chiron—are explicitly labeled as depressed in the context of the film, which means that this analysis may feel like the type of unhelpful amateur diagnosis I mentioned when speaking about Euporia above, and 2) more importantly, the film focuses thematically on the intersections of masculinity, vulnerability, and Black experiences—and I do not want to undermine those conversations by reframing the narrative as a commentary on general mental health issues.

With that in mind, I want to target my analysis of Moonlight by beginning with this thesis: Barry Jenkins’ 2016 coming-of-age film Moonlight offers one of the most compelling portrayals of male emotional turmoil. For some moviegoers, the film does, in fact, offer enough evidence to diagnose Chiron with depression. After all, Chiron experiences several traumatic events as a child, and those events undoubtedly fuel his lifelong search to minimize his apparent feelings of low self-worth, hopelessness, and occasional despair, all of which are characteristic of depression. And some viewers, like The Guardian‘s Deborah Orr, go even further:

In Moonlight, Chiron, played by three actors as a child, a teenager and an adult, already has complex PTSD, to my eyes, as a little kid. Complex PTSD is brought on when a person is subjected to a series of traumas, most often by a caregiver they ought to be able to trust unconditionally, but from whom there is little chance of escape. Abused or neglected children are very susceptible to C-PTSD. By the time Chiron is an adult, from my reading of the film, C-PTSD is rampant.

But let’s take a step back and focus on the spirit of the film, which highlights the complexities of belonging and the emotional frustrations associated with feeling vulnerable. Even if depression is not in the foreground of Chiron’s story, his experiences and emotional reactions nonetheless offer lessons for those—perhaps especially men—who are experiencing depression, which often involves persistent feelings of hopelessness, aimlessness, and emotional frustration. In other words, it is possible to view Chiron’s story through the lens of mental health without overshadowing the other, perhaps deeper themes that drive the narrative.

And through that lens, the blues and purples and yellows of Moonlight‘s story reveal a harrowing bildungsroman of pervasive male loneliness and reluctance to acknowledge the inherent fragility of emotional health. Chiron exists in world where authenticity and vulnerability are chaotically intermingled with escapism and bullheadedness, and his profound struggles to navigate that world are likely familiar to men who have attempted to silently address real mental health issues. It’s like trying to swim without making a ripple—which is to say that it’s nearly impossible to do without drowning. It is no surprise that Moonlight‘s color palette is a clash of dispassionate blues and disruptive purples. And I found it particularly impactful that Juan (a drug-dealing father figure) teaches Chiron how to swim just before encouraging him to walk his own path—to avoid falling prey to the harshness of toxic masculinity.

Researchers and mental health professionals have long known that “men have inherited old social norms” like “requirements of self-reliance, limiting any emotional expression, and, most importantly, never being perceived as weak,” and these (assuredly foolish) norms complicate the process of seeking care for diagnosable mental health issues. As a case study on masculinity, Moonlight spotlights the deep, heart-rending, and psychologically painful consequences of succumbing to the myth of stoic masculinity.

For what it’s worth, researchers have found ways to combat these norms. Consider this excerpt from a study titled “Masculinity, Social Connectedness, and Mental Health: Men’s Diverse Patterns of Practice” from the American Journal of Men’s Health:

There is potential value in mental health promotion strategies which encourage and support men to openly resist, and challenge, the confines of hegemonic masculinity in relation to their social connections with others, such as demonstrating how men can change their practice in terms of social relationships, by actively crossing unwritten boundaries and reaching out to other men to purse emotionally supportive relationships, without placing a higher burden on women to achieve this. There is particular value in promoting such a message to men when they are going through significant or traumatic life events, such as cancer diagnosis or a relationship breakdown.

2. Avengers: Endgame (2019) dir. Anthony Russo and Joe Russo

Let me start with this: I understand the criticisms regarding the film’s treatment of Thor’s weight, but I think the belittling comments made by War Machine, Rocket Raccoon, and others add—likely unintentionally—an additional layer of authenticity to the portrayal of Thor’s depressive experience. In real life, depression often leads to weight gain, and many individuals in the real world are unkind when discussing the weight of others. Do I think the writers added these cheap jokes for the sake of authenticity? No. I think this is a typical case of Marvel writers overusing bathos. But do I think that Thor’s mental health journey is compelling and emotionally relatable, maybe even because of these jokes? Yes.

In fact, I argue that Thor’s journey from the beginning of The Dark World to the end of Endgame is one of the most accurate and intriguing depictions of depression in film—even more compelling than the journey of Thunderbolts‘ Yelena Belova. Intentionally or not—and at least some of it was intentional—the writers managed to portray genuine, meaningful, and lasting melancholy in the life of a literal god. Thor experienced a great amount of loss in the films preceding Endgame: he lost his mother, his father, Heimdall, Loki, his home, his hammer (and thus his self-worth), and half of his people. Like many of us, Thor desperately (and a little bullheadedly) pushed through his trauma, believing that he could out-wrestle his declining mental health. If he could only stop Thanos, then maybe the sting of his depression wouldn’t overtake him. But he couldn’t outrun his feelings, and neither can we. Thanos’s victory—coupled with the emptiness Thor felt when beheading Thanos post-Snap—finally broke him.

In Endgame, we see a man who is adrift—but still holding on. Sometimes, just getting out of bed and interacting with the world requires remarkable strength. Thor is struggling, yes, but he is not weak. Thor’s conversation with his mother is one of Marvel’s most emotionally impactful moments (on par with Yondu’s funeral in Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 and the tributes to T’Challa in Black Panther: Wakanda Forever) because we see true vulnerability from one of the mightiest Avengers. “The future hasn’t been kind to you, has it?” his mother says, causing Thor to break down. And that bit of kindness and validation (from both his mother and Mjölnir) is all Thor needs to prepare himself emotionally to fight Thanos again. Thor’s journey reminds us that vulnerability is a sign of strength, not weakness.

1. Melancholia (2011) dir. Lars von Trier

I am not the first to place Melancholia at the top of a list like this. In 2021, a BBC article asked, “Is Melancholia the greatest film about depression ever made?” The article explores the film’s uniquely nuanced depiction of mental health:

[Melancholia] is so powerful because it refuses to do what people in the grip of mental illness are often pressured to do: make the pain small. There is a defiance to making the pain so big that it literally prefaces the end of the world. The combination of high-concept science-fiction and realistically nuanced characters and relationships is melded together seamlessly.

Many critics and scholars have already discussed the film’s multifaceted and artistic depictions of depression—and I strongly encourage you to watch Nerdwriter’s video essay below—so I will not spend my time parroting the insights of others. Instead, I will offer some thoughts about my personal experiences watching Melancholia in theaters. The first time I saw the movie, I was at the Keystone Art Cinema in Indianapolis. Situated in a mid-to-high-end fashion mall, the movie theater showcased an eclectic mix of foreign, blockbuster, and mildly avant-garde films, all of which were honored with a custom cocktail at the theater’s attached faux dive bar. It was a well-intentioned and very suburban art theater—the kind of place filled with khakis and polite subversion. During and after the viewing of Melancholia, the moviegoers in my theater—many of whom were over fifty years old—were silent, which I felt was appropriate given the subject matter. Depression is a serious illness, and their quietness implied a certain deference.

My second viewing of Melancholia occurred a week later at an arthouse theater near the college I attended. The oldest moviegoer was maybe thirty, and the crowd’s barely whispered conversations continued after the lights dimmed, stopping only when Kirsten Dunst finally appeared on screen. As the movie progressed, the audience reacted, at times, with laughter. When Stellan Skarsgård smashed the plate, they giggled. When Kiefer Sutherland and Charlotte Gainsbourg played with their weird homemade planet-sizing tool, they chuckled. At first, I was confused and a little indignant. Didn’t they understand the significance of what they were viewing?

But eventually, I came to a different conclusion: there is no one right way to respond to depression.

Some responses are more helpful than others, of course—and some escapist strategies can actually worsen depressive feelings—but depression is not a one-size-fits-all experience.

Which is why it is so important that we talk about depression. Honestly and intelligently. Resist the romanticized version of depression you see on TikTok. Focus instead on depictions of depression that wrestle with the truly ugly and wildly confusing facets of this complex mental illness.

Did I miss any compelling depictions of depression? Let me know in the comments.


Ben Boruff is a co-founder of Big B and Mo’ Money. Read more at BenBoruff.com.

An Analysis of All Visual Media I Experienced for the First Time in 2025

We are the stories we tell.

That is what I tell my high school students.

Not in an abstract, Shakespearean sort of way. I mean it literally: you are the product of your stories. Your background, your childhood, your traumas, your joys, your cultural heritage, your experience-informed preferences and habits. Your past is a collection of stories, and those stories have molded you into the person you are today.

This is why I encourage others to examine the content they absorb. Last year, I noted how media impacts our views of the world:

I was reminded recently that there is no such thing as mindless scrolling or viewing. Our brains absorb everything we put in front of our eyes, even if it happens in ways we don’t comprehend. So it makes sense that we should analyze the types of media we experience. If the movies and shows I watch impact my perception of the world, I should examine which movies and shows I experience.

But this year, I want to expand on that thesis: the content we experience impacts our perceptions of ourselves as well as our world. Stories are powerful. They can subtly change how we frame our own experiences and alter how we process our own thoughts. If you tell yourself a story often enough, that story becomes indistinguishable from truth. This phenomenon can be powerful or terrifying, depending on the story.

With that in mind, below is an analysis of every movie, television show, video game, and feature-length YouTube video I experienced for the first time in 2025. The data is first, then an analysis, and then a comprehensive list of everything I experienced.

The Data

Of the films I watched for the first time in 2025:

  • 0% are Westerns
  • 7% are mysteries
  • 7% are romance films
  • 9% are horror films
  • 9% are animated films
  • 15% are comedies
  • 31% are action, thriller, or adventure films
  • 33% are science fiction or fantasy
  • 31% are films that released in 2025
  • 34% are documentaries
  • ~58% are dramas

Of the television show seasons I watched for the first time in 2025:

  • ~6% are reality television
  • ~8% are historical dramas or comedies
  • ~14% are animated
  • ~17% are science fiction or fantasy
  • ~28% are comedies
  • ~31% are dramas (not reality television)

Analysis

Commentary on Power: I have taught George Orwell’s 1984 more frequently than most any other story. (It is second only to William Shakespeare’s Macbeth.) While we read Orwell’s classic dystopian tale, my students explore the three laws of power: 1) power is never static, 2) power flows through everyday life like water, and 3) power creates opportunities for more power, as TED-ed’s Eric Liu explains. In every scenario, you are either exerting your influence on others, or others are exerting their influence on you. This is why conversations about power are so important: we need to understand the ubiquity of daily power dynamics in order to challenge manipulative, toxic, or dangerous uses of power. I am not sure exactly why my recent film viewing experiences incorporate themes of power and ethics so frequently, but I imagine it has something to do with my continued belief in the value of identifying the intangible-yet-powerful power dynamics in our day-to-day lives. Some of my favorite cinematic explorations of power: Prime Minister (2025), Lilith Fair: Building a Mystery (2025), Join or Die (2023), This Place Rules (2022), and Pariyerum Perumal (2018).

Consistency Is Key(?): Apparently, my film viewing habits are bewilderingly consistent. In regard to genre, my 2025 viewing statistics are nearly identical to my 2024 stats. On one hand, this speaks to the sincerity with which I pursue documentaries and science fiction. My love of knowledge and fantasy is a consistent part of my identity, apparently. On the other hand, I worry that I have stagnated as a moviegoer. In 2024, for example, I explained that I had recently discovered an appreciation for Westerns, yet I did nothing to nurture that appreciation in 2025. Should I consciously pick more romance, horror, and animated films in 2026? Maybe. Or maybe it’s okay that I like what I like. Genre does not determine quality. Either way, I would like to expand my awareness of international, non-U.S. films. That is a worthy goal, and it is my goal for 2026.

Other Observations and Subjective Awards
Movies

Favorite movies released in 2025: 28 Years Later, Bison Kaalamaadan, O’Dessa, Prime Minister, Steve

Favorite pre-2025 films I watched: Nayakan (1987), Panchatanthiram (2002), Pariyerum Perumal (2018), A Real Pain (2024), I’m Still Here (2024), Sonic the Hedgehog 3 (2024), Nickel Boys (2024), Anora (2024)

Film maudit (films “unfairly maligned” by critics): O’Dessa (2025)—39% on Rotten Tomatoes, 2.5 on Letterboxd, and 5/10 on IMDb, but I absolutely love this film. Highly recommend.

Most-watched director in 2025: Mari Selvaraj (Pariyerum Perumal, Vaazhai, and Bison Kaalamaadan)

Movies I started with no expectations and found surprisingly good: Dave Made a Maze (2017), Pig (2021), Join or Die (2023), Wicked Little Letters (2023), On Falling (2024), Sonic the Hedgehog 3 (2024), Jazzy (2024), O’Dessa (2025)

Movies I started with mid-to-high expectations and found notably disappointing: A Complete Unknown (2024), Sacramento (2024), Tron: Ares (2025), Mountainhead (2025)

Worst movies watched in 2025: Captain America: Brave New World (2025), Trainwreck: Balloon Boy (2025)

Television Shows

Favorite shows and seasons: The Pitt (S1), Andor (S2), Barry (S1, S2), Grey’s Anatomy (S2), American Primeval (S1), Victoria (S2, S3)

New recipient of my Near-Perfect Show award: Andor. Only two other shows have received this honor: Succession and BoJack Horseman.

Seasons that were almost brilliant but not quite there: Search Party (S1, S2, S3), The Last of Us (S2)

Not blown away but will probably continue watching: Shadow and Bone and Star Trek: Strange New Worlds

Seasons that were better than most people think: The Witcher (S4)

Disappointing seasons: Mythic Quest (S4), The Sandman (S2)

Video Games

Favorite game beat in 2025: Atomfall

Games that were surprisingly enjoyable: A Way Out and Grounded

Games with the best music: NieR: Automata and The Outer Worlds 2

Games that were aggressively mediocre (not unpleasant, but not great): Super Mario Bros. Wonder, Assassin’s Creed: Origins, and Far Cry New Dawn

YouTube

Most-watched creators in 2025: Willjum, Simon Wilson, Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan, DougDoug, and JGigs

Best videos: “Dua Lipa versus the literary landscape” by Below the Fray, “The Godawful Presidents of the Marvel Cinematic Universe” by Nando v Movies, “Overnight on Moldova’s Worst Sleeper Train” by Simon Wilson, “The Absolute Chaos of Bethesda” by big boss, “Is Gen Z ‘Too Woke’ Or Are You Just Too Dumb? (the rise of anti-intellectualism)” by imuRgency, and “The Hardest Soulslike” by videogamedunkey

LIST OF FILMS WATCHED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2025

Bullet Train (2022) dir. David Leitch
A Scanner Darkly (2006) dir. Richard Linklater
Mystery Men (1999) dir. Kinka Usher
Gladiator II (2024) dir. Ridley Scott
Society of the Snow (2023) dir. J. A. Bayona
Tollbooth (2021) dir. Ryan Andrew Hooper
This Place Rules (2022) dir. Andrew Callaghan
Alien: Romulus (2024) dir. Fede Álvarez
Venom: The Last Dance (2024) dir. Kelly Marcel
Sonic the Hedgehog 3 (2024) dir. Jeff Fowler
A Real Pain (2024) dir. Jesse Eisenberg
I’m Still Here (2024) dir. Walter Salles
Nickel Boys (2024) dir. RaMell Ross
Anora (2024) dir. Sean Baker
The Killing of a Sacred Deer (2017) dir. Yorgos Lanthimos
The Founder (2016) dir. John Lee Hancock
Ghosts of the Deep: Black Sea Shipwrecks (2019) dir. David Belton, Andy Byatt
In the Heights (2021) dir. Jon M. Chu
The Fallout (2021) dir. Megan Park
I’m Totally Fine (2022) dir. Brandon Dermer
Flow (2024) dir. Gints Zilbalodis
The Electric State (2025) dir. Anthony Russo, Joe Russo
The Monkey King: Reborn (2021) dir. Wang Yunfei
O’Dessa (2025) dir. Geremy Jasper
A Complete Unknown (2024) dir. James Mangold
Dave Made a Maze (2017) dir. Bill Watterson
Last Exit: Space (2022) dir. Rudolph Herzog
The Perfect Weapon (2020) dir. John Maggio
Tuesday (2023) dir. Daina O. Pusić
Mickey 17 (2025) dir. Bong Joon Ho
The Pale Blue Eye (2022) dir. Scott Cooper
Ballet Now (2018) dir. Steven Cantor
Britain and the Blitz (2025) dir. Ella Wright
King Lear (2018) dir. Richard Eyre
A Brief History of Time (1991) dir. Errol Morris
Parthenope (2024) dir. Paolo Sorrentino
Captain America: Brave New World (2025) dir. Julius Onah
The Order (2024) dir. Justin Kurzel
Seven Veils (2023) dir. Atom Egoyan
Thunderbolts* (2025) dir. Jake Schreier
The Wild Robot (2024) dir. Chris Sanders
Join or Die (2023) dir. Pete Davis, Rebecca Davis
Biggest Heist Ever (2024) dir. Chris Smith
Mountainhead (2025) dir. Jesse Armstrong
Pete’s Dragon (2016) dir. David Lowery
Rosetta (1999) dir. Luc Dardenne, Jean-Pierre Dardenne
Valley of the Dead (2020) dir. Alberto de Toro, Javier Ruiz Caldera
Shock and Awe (2017) dir. Rob Reiner
Jazzy (2024) dir. Morrisa Maltz
West Side Story (2021) dir. Steven Spielberg
Scoop (2024) dir. Philip Martin
Ballerina (2025) dir. Len Wiseman
Power (2024) dir. Yance Ford
Nayakan (1987) dir. Mani Ratnam
Pig (2021) dir. Michael Sarnoski
Blink Twice (2024) dir. Zoë Kravitz
A Minecraft Movie (2025) dir. Jared Hess
CTRL (2024) dir. Vikramaditya Motwane
Mission: Impossible – The Final Reckoning (2025) dir. Christopher McQuarrie
28 Years Later (2025) dir. Danny Boyle
Hotel Transylvania 2 (2015) dir. Genndy Tartakovsky
Hotel Transylvania (2012) dir. Genndy Tartakovsky
Going Down (1982) dir. Haydn Keenan
F1 The Movie (2025) dir. Joseph Kosinski
How to Train Your Dragon (2025) dir. Dean DeBlois
On Falling (2024) dir. Laura Carreira
Maharaja (2024) dir. Nithilan Saminathan
The Ron Clark Story (2006) dir. Randa Haines
The Fantastic Four: First Steps (2025) dir. Matt Shakman
Superman (2025) dir. James Gunn
Uncharted (2022) dir. Ruben Fleischer
Kuch Kuch Hota Hai (1998) dir. Karan Johar
Trainwreck: Poop Cruise (2025) dir. James Ross
Trainwreck: The Cult of American Apparel (2025) dir. Sally Rose Griffiths
Unknown Number: The High School Catfish (2025) dir. Skye Borgman
Bulbul Can Sing (2018) dir. Rima Das
Pariyerum Perumal (2018) dir. Mari Selvaraj
Trainwreck: The Real Project X (2025) dir. Alex Wood
Death of a Unicorn (2025) dir. Alex Scharfman
Friendship (2024) dir. Andrew DeYoung
Superman: Man of Tomorrow (2020) dir. Chris Palmer
Sacramento (2024) dir. Michael Angarano
Kaithi (2019) dir. Lokesh Kanagaraj
Surviving Ohio State (2025) dir. Eva Orner
Superman: Unbound (2013) dir. James Tucker
Vaazhai (2024) dir. Mari Selvaraj
Elio (2025) dir. Adrian Molina, Domee Shi, Madeline Sharafian
Daddio (2023) Christy Hall
Prime Minister (2025) dir. Michelle Walshe, Lindsay Utz
Tron: Ares (2025) dir. Joachim Rønning
Lilith Fair: Building a Mystery (2025) dir. Ally Pankiw
Bison Kaalamaadan (2025) dir Mari Selvaraj
Peter Hujar’s Day (2025) dir Ira Sachs
Enthiran (2010) dir. S. Shankar
Steve (2025) dir. Tim Mielants
Diary of a Wimpy Kid Christmas: Cabin Fever (2023) dir. Luke Cormican
The Santa Clause 2 (2002) dir. Michael Lembeck
Thoughts & Prayers: Or How to Survive an Active Shooter in America (2025) dir. Zackary Canepari, Jessica Dimmock
Creep (2014) dir. Patrick Brice
Caught Stealing (2025) dir. Darren Aronofsky
Meiyazhagan (2024) dir. C. Prem Kumar
Holy Motors (2012) dir. Leos Carax
This Place (2022) dir. V.T. Nayani
Home Alone 4 (2002) dir. Rod Daniel
Vikram Vedha (2022) dir. Pushkar–Gayathri
Vada Chennai (2018) dir. Vetrimaaran
Wake Up Dead Man (2025) dir. Rian Johnson
Panchatanthiram (2002) dir. KS Ravikumar
The Bad Guys 2 (2025) dir. Pierre Perifel
Murder in Monaco (2025) dir. Hodges Usry
Trainwreck: Mayor of Mayhem (2025) dir. Shianne Brown
Trainwreck: The Astroworld Tragedy (2025) dir. Yemi Bamiro, Hannah Poulter
Trainwreck: Balloon Boy (2025) dir. Gillian Pachter
Wicked Little Letters (2023) dir. Thea Sharrock

LIST OF TV SHOW SEASONS WATCHED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2025

Creature Commandos, S1
Archer, S9
Make Some Noise, S3
Invincible, S3
The White Lotus, S3
Barry, S1, S2, S3
Mythic Quest, S4
Search Party, S1, S2, S3
The Pitt, S1
The Last of Us, S2
Survivor, S48
The Terror, S1
Andor, S2
Star Trek: Strange New Worlds, S1
Rick and Morty, S8
Star Trek: Lower Decks, S5
Tires, S2
Castlevania: Nocturne, S2
The Sandman, S2
Grey’s Anatomy, S1, S2, S3, S4, S5, S6
Shadow and Bone, S1
The Bear, S1
Peacemaker, S2
Gen V, S2
Death by Lightning, S1
Victoria, S2, S3
All Her Fault, S1
The Witcher, S4
American Primeval, S1

LIST OF VIDEO GAMES BEAT IN 2025

A Way Out (Xbox) – beat: played as Leo; survived
Escape Academy (Xbox) – beat: heart rate increased throughout
Super Mario Bros. Wonder (Nintendo Switch) – beat
NieR: Automata (Xbox) – beat: Become as Gods Edition; Ending A
It Takes Two (Xbox) – beat: played as Cody
Diablo IV (Xbox) – beat: played as a necromancer; lots of reaping
Far Cry New Dawn (Xbox) – beat: spared Mickey (because she was super cool); killed Joseph Seed (obviously)
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Little Hope (Xbox) – beat: saved Andrew, saved Mary
Atomfall (Xbox) – beat: killed Oberon; escaped via the Voice on the Telephone
Grounded (Xbox) – “beat” i.e. made a spectacular grass-based mansion with James
Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic (Xbox) – beat: go-to companions Jolee Bindo, Juhani, and Zaalbar
Assassin’s Creed: Origins (Xbox) – beat
Far Cry 4 (Xbox) – beat: sided with Amita (because Sabal was sexist); killed Pagan
The Outer Worlds 2 (Xbox) – beat: saved Fairfield; spared Seer Wiley; released skip-drive schematics to public; brokered an alliance between Auntie’s Choice and the Order; spared the Consul; go-to companions Niles and Marisol
Dragon Age: The Veilguard (Xbox) – beat: prioritized Treviso; encouraged Emmrich to become a lich; convinced Solas to bond himself to the Veil; Davrin died; go-to companions Lucanis, Emmrich, and Neve

YOUTUBE VIDEOS (VIDEOS & VIDEO ESSAYS OVER 45 MINUTES AND/OR OF NOTABLE QUALITY) WATCHED IN 2025

Ranking Every Superhero Suit Up Ever” by Y Reviews
I Played Every Spider-Man Game Ever Made” by Jacko
I created 100 apartments on one lot…” by James Turner
These Are The 8 Greatest & Best City Builders Of All Time” by GamerZakh
Dubai Is Everything Wrong With Society” by Moon
RFK Jr. Rally” by Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan
D.A.R.E. Conference” by Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan
Defend the Border Convoy” by Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan
The Second Punic War – Oversimplified (Part 3)” by Oversimplified
Free Luigi Rally” by Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan
Poor People’s Army (DNC)” by Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan
Why Do Evangelicals Fall For Conspiracy Theories?” by Belief It Or Not
The Worst Kind of Stupid Person” by Kahmal
The REAL reason behind Andrew Schulz’s rant” by Quddus Gordon
The Dark World of Megachurches” by James Jani
Is Gen Z ‘Too Woke’ Or Are You Just Too Dumb? (the rise of anti-intellectualism)” by imuRgency
Pennsylvania Bigfoot Conference” by Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan
They Couldn’t Make This Game Today” by peterspittech
This Dark Fantasy RPG is a Freudian Nightmare | Demonicon” by Khanlusa
Still Wakes the Deep is my Personal NIGHTMARE and I Love It” by Khanlusa
Why Lolita is Impossible to Adapt into Film” by Final Girl Digi
Dua Lipa versus the literary landscape” by Below the Fray
What Makes a Performance ‘Oscar Worthy’?” by From The Frame
Are People Starting To Hate The Savannah Bananas?” by Baseball Doesn’t Exist
Is Dave Filoni a FRAUD?” by Typoh
book red flags and the Male Reading Crisis” by Man Carrying Thing
The Godawful Presidents of the Marvel Cinematic Universe” by Nando v Movies
Who Can Write Whose Story?” by Below the Fray
1000 Players Simulate Earth Civilization in Rust 2.0” by FancyOrb
Rimworld Medieval, 1 Colonist Start… (5 years)” by ambiguousamphibian
Rimworld, 100% Passion, 0-Skill Run (8 Years)” by ambiguousamphibian
New York’s Most Wanted Drivers Pt 2” by Tommy G
Poorest Region of America – What It Really Looks Like” by Peter Santanello
Rimworld, 1-PAWN ICE SHEET Survival…(5 years)” by ambiguousamphibian
Sailor, Soldier, & Explorer Rations: Food for the Commoner – Salt Pork” by Townsends
The Rise and Fall of The New 52 – What Went Wrong?” by Owen Likes Comics
40 Best Single-Player Games You Simply Must Experience” by gamewise
I played the new generation of Official Rust…” by Willjum
Inside Afghanistan Pakistan Border Town” by Simon Wilson
Cheapest Hotel vs Most Expensive Hotel in Kazakstan” by Simon Wilson
I Tried a 1-Star Cruise” by Simon Wilson
I Tried 1-Star Hotels Across Europe” by Simon Wilson
I Tried America’s 1-Star Hotels” by Simon Wilson
I Built the most High IQ solo base in Vanilla Rust…” by Willjum
A Solo’s Rust Odyssey .. II” by Willjum
I hired a professional builder to play rust” by Willjum
How long can a Pro Base Builder survive an Endless Siege?” by Willjum
I designed a new Solo Strategy on Official Rust..” by Willjum
How a Solo rat with 13,126 Hours plays Official Rust…” by Willjum
I survived 7 days solo in vanilla Rust…” by Willjum
When a solo Farmer Hires a PVP GODSQUAD to play Rust…” by Willjum
I Survived 24 Hours on a stranded Iceberg in Vanilla Rust…” by Willjum
I Built an Apocalypse Settlement in Vanilla Rust..” by Willjum
Two Solos 100 Hour Rust Odyssey…” by Willjum
I Discovered the New Broken Solo meta for Official Rust…” by Willjum
I Built the first Invisible jungle stronghold in Official Rust…” by Willjum
I Built the First self sustaining base in Rust…” by Willjum
I Built the Greatest Solo Castle you’ll ever see in Rust…” by Willjum
When a Solo builder and a PVP Chad play Vanilla Rust…” by Willjum
Overnight on Moldova’s Worst Sleeper Train” by Simon Wilson
I Tried a Luxury Vietnam Sleeper Train” by Simon Wilson
I Tested America’s Worst 1-Star Airlines” by Simon Wilson
I Tried The Worst Sleeper Train in Europe” by Simon Wilson
First Class on Luxury Arctic Cruise” by Simon Wilson
Overnight in the World’s First Ice Hotel (Arctic Circle)” by Simon Wilson
I Flew To The Northernmost Town On Earth (North Pole)” by Simon Wilson
Cheapest vs. Most Expensive vs. Homemade Fish Sandwich” by Mythical Kitchen
Cheapest vs. Most Expensive vs. Homemade Cooking Challenge” by Mythical Kitchen
The Deadliest Total War Campaign Ever Played” by More Warpstone
Skyrim Speedrun, but the quests make no sense” by DougDoug
The Absolute Chaos of Bethesda” by big boss
The Absolute Chaos of Concord” by big boss
Nikola Motors | The Future of Transport” by big boss
GTA 5’s most chaotic mod, but if I break the law I explode” by DougDoug
Planet Coaster, but a random disaster happens every 5 minutes” by DougDoug
The Skyrim Speedrun where you literally just get married” by DougDougDoug
This Fallout 4 Mod Obliterated my Sanity” by Joov
Playing my favorite Games ever (and a few that I hate)” by DougDougDoug
Twitch Chat and I invaded USA with Artificial Intelligence” by DougDoug
I let Twitch Chat make their own D&D campaign” by DougDoug
Crazy RPG logic compilation #52” by Viva La Dirt League
They Made British Fallout and it’s Fantastic” by Joov
The Hardest Soulslike” by videogamedunkey
Fake Bear Trap Camping” by Steve Wallis
40 Best Indie & AA Games You Simply Must Experience” by gamewise
20 Underrated Open World Games You NEED to Give a Chance” by Pixel Dragon
I Played 20 Survival Games For 2 Hours Each to Find The Best” by JGigs
50 Greatest Open-World Games You Can Play Right Now” by Pixel Dragon
The Most Hated Politician in America” by big boss
The Most Hated Mayor in America” by big boss
The Fake Cash Giveaways of McDonald’s Monopoly” by The Fool
I ran unethical social experiments on Twitch Chat” by DougDoug
Forgotten Hot Drinks Of History” by Townsends
I Played 20 FREE RPGs For 2 Hours Each to Find The Best” by JGigs
I Played 20 Zombie Games For 2 Hours Each to Find The Best” by JGigs
I flew back to Chennai to EAT!!” by Chris Lewis
India’s $2.7 Billion Capital Project Explained” by neo

BONUS: EVERY PODCAST EPISODE I LISTENED TO FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2025

“Nicholas Hoult” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Danny McBride” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Christina Ricci” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Nathan Lane” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Bill Hader Returns Again” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Diego Luna” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Ayo Edebiri” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Andy Samberg” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Janelle James” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Werner Herzog Returns” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Rose Byrne” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Mary, Queen of Scots: Birth of a Legend (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“Mary, Queen of Scots: The Royal Rivals (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“Mary, Queen of Scots: The Battle for Scotland (Part 3)” by The Rest Is History
“Mary, Queen of Scots: Murder Most Foul (Part 4)” by The Rest Is History
“Mary, Queen of Scots: The Mystery of the Exploding Mansion (Part 5)” by The Rest Is History
“Mary, Queen of Scots: Downfall (Part 6)” by The Rest Is History
“Peter the Great: The Rise of Russia (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“Peter the Great: Bloodbath in the Kremlin (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“The Great Northern War: The Battle of the Baltic (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“The Great Northern War: Revenge of the Cossacks (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“The Great Northern War: Slaughter on the Steppes (Part 3)” by The Rest Is History
“The Great Northern War: Murder in Moscow (Part 4)” by The Rest Is History
“Rasputin” by The Rest Is History
“The First World War: The Invasion of Belgium (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“The First World War: The Battle of the Frontiers (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“The First World War: The Miracle on the Marne (Part 3)” by The Rest Is History
“The First World War: The Massacre of the Innocents (Part 4)” by The Rest Is History
“The First World War: The Eastern Front Explodes (Part 5)” by The Rest Is History
“The First World War: Downfall of the Habsburgs (Part 6)” by The Rest Is History
“Elizabeth I: The Fall of the Axe (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“Elizabeth I: Anne Boleyn’s Bastard (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“Elizabeth I: The Shadow of the Tower (Part 3)” by The Rest Is History
“Elizabeth I: The Virgin Queen (Part 4)” by The Rest Is History
“Judd Apatow Returns” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Quantum Refuge” by Radiolab
“Hundred Years’ War: Henry V’s Invasion of France (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“Hundred Years’ War: The Road to Agincourt (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“Hundred Years’ War: Bloodbath at Agincourt (Part 3)” by The Rest Is History
“Hundred Years’ War: England Triumphant (Part 4)” by The Rest Is History
“Will Arnett Returns” by Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend
“Hannibal: Rome’s Greatest Enemy (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“Hannibal: Elephants Cross the Alps (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“Hannibal: The Invasion of Italy (Part 3)” by The Rest Is History
“Hannibal: Roman Bloodbath at Cannae (Part 4)” by The Rest Is History
“Custer vs. Crazy Horse: Civil War (Part 1)” by The Rest Is History
“Custer vs. Crazy Horse: The Winning of the West (Part 2)” by The Rest Is History
“Custer vs. Crazy Horse: Horse-Lords of the Plains (Part 3)” by The Rest Is History
“Custer vs. Crazy Horse: Rise of Sitting Bull (Part 4)” by The Rest Is History


Read more at BenBoruff.com.

Mike Birbiglia, April Ludgate, and the Upsetting Social Pressure to Make a Family

Mike Birbiglia betrayed us.

Mike Birbiglia’s 2013 stand-up special My Girlfriend’s Boyfriend begins with a targeted critique of marriage:

So about five years ago, pretty much everyone who I know started to get married, and that was strange for me because I don’t really believe in the idea of marriage. And that would have been fine, except I have a problem where sometimes when I think that I am right about something, it can be a real source of tension between me and the person I’m arguing with. And the reason it’s a source of tension is that I’m right. And so I remember distinctly talking to my friend Dana, and she goes, “Well, you don’t believe in marriage for you, but, of course, you believe in it for other people.” And I was like, “No, I think it’s insane, you know, for anyone.” And she said, “Why?” And I said, “Well, first of all, it just seems doomed.” You know, 50% of marriages end in divorce. That’s just first marriages, by the way. Second marriages, 60% to 62% end in divorce. Third marriages, 70% to 75% end in divorce. That’s a learning curve.

And he doesn’t stop there. In his comedy special, This American Life and The Moth regular Mike Birbiglia reinforces his anti-marriage worldview with jokes about actively resisting the pending marriages of his friends:

I had one ally in all this, which is my friend Andy, and he’s a comedian as well. Not only did we decide we weren’t gonna get married, we actually tried to stop other people we knew from getting married. Yeah, we were pretty good at it. Like, we stopped or put on hold three or four marriages, you know. We were pretty good. I mean, we weren’t like the best in the world. I’m sure there are better in Europe. But we were solid, you know. Like, so, like, for example, at point my friend Alex was about to get engaged. And so we just took him to dinner. And during dessert, we gave him a long, hard stare. We said, “Are you sure this is what you want to do?” And then we went cold to give him the sense of what it would feel like when we weren’t friends anymore.

Throughout his special, Billions and Orange Is the New Black guest star Mike Birbiglia critiques the gaudiness of marriage ceremonies (“I don’t buy into the flamboyant pageantry that goes into celebrating it”), the history of marriage (“marriage is an archaic institution invented in the middle ages based on exchanging property”), the legal mores of marriage (“why does it need to be written into a government contract?”), and marriage’s inherent connections to religion (“I’ve been to more weddings of my friends where the people on the altar don’t believe in the religion of the church they’ve invited us to!”).

Then, Cedar Rapids (2011) and Trainwreck (2015) actor Mike Birbiglia tells a personal story about the comically tragic aftermath of a car accident—a story he has told on This American Life and elsewhere—before transitioning back to his girlfriend Jenny: “The only person who would talk to me at this point was Jenny.”

Famous sleepwalker Mike Birbiglia ends his 2013 special with a heartwarming admission of his own stubbornness and a confession of his marriage to poet Jen “Jenny” Stein:

July 7, 2007, Jenny and I went to city hall and got married. I still didn’t believe in the idea of marriage, and I still don’t. But I believe in her, and I’ve given up on the idea of being right.

It’s sweet.

But I hate it. I hate it because it doesn’t stop there.

At the beginning of his 2019 comedy special The New One, casual Taylor Swift friend Mike Birbiglia acknowledges his dislike of children:

Maybe I have a low tolerance for children. I’ve lost a lot of great friends to kids. Because it really is like a disease in some ways. But it’s worse than a disease because they want you to have it too. [zombie voice] “You should have kids too.” I’m watching you do it, and I’m thinkin’ I’m gonna not do it. They’re like zombies, they’re like [zombie voice] “You should eat brains.” I’m watching you eat brains, and it seems like it ruined your life.

By his own admission, past Late Night with Conan O’Brien intern Mike Birbiglia’s desire for a childless life was unambiguous: “I was very clear when we got married that I never wanted to have a kid. . . . I was clear I would never change.”

And throughout The New One, he offers specific reasons for not wanting kids:

Number one, I’ve never felt like there should be more of me in the world. . . . I had cancer, life-threatening sleeping disorder, Lyme disease, diabetes. I’m not exactly handing off A-plus genes here. Number two. I love my marriage, and I feel…I really do, I feel so lucky to have found my wife. . . . And I don’t want to give that up. I don’t want that to change. I don’t want a third person showing up, like, “What about me?” I’m like, “We don’t even know you!” Number three. I don’t know anything and I’m not ready to teach the children. I mean, I’ve read hundreds of books. I’ve retained very little. . . . Number four, I have a cat. Number five. I have a job. . . . It took me a long time to figure out anything I was good at. I wasn’t good at video games, or archery, or whatever the hell kids do. And then, I figured this out. I don’t want to give that up. My brother’s like, “Mike, you can have a kid and a career.” And I said, “Yeah, Joe, but it’ll be worse.” If we’re being honest with ourselves kids hold us back. . . . Number six. I don’t think there should be children anymore. Nothing drastic. I think the current children can see through their term. I just think maybe we cut it off there, because, look, we were given the earth and we failed. . . . Number seven. People aren’t great. Not just Nazis. I mean, people in general are not great. And look, you guys seem fine. And the conventional wisdom is that people are generally good. But are they?

And Jimmy Kimmel Live fill-in Mike Birbiglia allegedly told his wife all of that: “Why would you want to bring a child into this world with me? I’m a walking pre-existing condition, the earth is sinking into the ocean, we’re about to be living in the movie Waterworld, which did terribly at the box office. People are horrible, and I’m not great.”

His wife allegedly responded, “I know all of that. And I think you’d be a good dad.”

So they had a kid. Not just in the comedy special anecdote. Real-life married father Mike Birbiglia actually has a child now.

Mike Birbiglia betrayed us.

I want to be abundantly clear: The problem is not that Birbiglia is married and has a child. Unlike Birbiglia in his own stand-up special, I do not mind when others get married or have children. The problem is that Birbiglia publicly and enthusiastically advocated for single, childless lifestyles before getting married and having a child—and then uses his past advocacy as fodder for comedy.

Consider the current socio-political landscape as it applies to perceptions of marriage, parenting, and “traditional” families:

  • In 2015, Pope Francis said that couples who choose not to have children are “selfish.” Pope Francis reinforced that belief again in 2024, praising cultures with averages of three to five children per household: “Keep going like this. It is an example for all countries.”
  • In 2016, Bella DePaulo, Ph.D., explained the inherent psychological biases we have against single individuals: “Nearly every other person describing married people, approximately 49 percent, spontaneously suggested that married people are kind, caring, or giving. Only 2 percent of the participants describing single people came up with those same characteristics. Every third person describing married people, around 32 percent, said that they were loving. No one—not one person—described single people this way. Married people were also more often described as happy, secure, loyal, compromising, and reliable. Single people, though, were more often described as independent.”
  • In 2021, JD Vance criticized “childless cat ladies,” which according to to NPR is an insult with a long history designed to paint childless women as either frightening or pitiful. (Vance has since claimed that his comment was meant as a critique of the “anti-family and anti-child” Democratic Party.)
  • Also in 2021, JD Vance stated that the idea of childless educators having influence over children “disorients” and “really disturbs” him. (Again, Vance later reframed his comment as a critique of “left-wing indoctrination” in schools.)
  • Again in 2021, JD Vance wondered during an interview whether or not childlessness might make people “people more sociopathic and ultimately our whole country a little bit less mentally stable.” The full quote: “There’s just these basic cadences of life I think are really powerful and really valuable when you have kids in your life, and the fact that so many people, especially in America’s leadership class, just don’t have that in their lives, you know — I worry that it makes people more sociopathic and ultimately our whole country a little bit less mentally stable.”
  • In 2022, a survey showed that “52% of 1,000 single UK adults reported experiencing single shaming ‘since the start of the pandemic.'” According to BBC, “researchers asked about the common ‘shaming phrases’ single people have heard from others, and 35% said they were told ‘you’ll find someone soon’. Twenty-nine percent heard ‘you must be so lonely’, while 38% reported general pity over their relationship status.”
  • A 2024 study from the Personality and Social Psychology Bulletin, unveiled “four overlapping ‘archetypes’ [perceptions] of single women and men”, including “‘Heartless (‘selfish,’ ‘promiscuous’), and Loner (‘lonely,’ ‘antisocial’).”

So when folks like Mike Birbiglia softly belittle genuine concerns about marriage and procreating, they are perpetuating a longstanding and wholly damaging status quo of pro-marriage, pro-procreating propaganda. In his comedy specials, Birbiglia presents himself as an underdog who reluctantly succumbs to happiness, but he’s really just punching down. He creates a fun, quirky, freethinking single-life caricature of himself only so that he can later use self-deprecation as a means of discounting singleness and/or childlessness.

Mike Birbiglia is not the only one who does this. My least favorite scene in the entire run of Parks and Recreation is this one:

Like Birbiglia, April Ludgate had valid reservations about having a child. But then Andy, Ben, and Leslie effectively bully April into having children. And so she does. (Leslie tells April that she likes her “team” and would love to see more “team members,” whatever that means.)

In the episode, Ben’s assertion that April will inevitably “get there” and change her views about children is particularly heinous.

There are valid reasons to oppose marriage and/or a child-filled lifestyle. According to 2025 numbers from Forbes, 43% of first marriages end in divorce. Yes, that’s lower than the commonly spread divorce statistic of 50%, but a 57% success rate is still hardly worth celebrating. If a restaurant had a 57% satisfaction rate, would you make a reservation? If a university had a 57% job placement rate, would you pay tuition? The average wedding in 2023 cost $30,119, and the cost of raising one child is, on average, $21,681 per year, not including the cost of saving for college. (The cost of raising a child over 18 years is $237,482 “just for the basic necessities”). Plus, the idea of marriage as an act of love is relatively new. Marriage was “rarely a matter of free choice” until the late 20th century. For most of human history, “romantic love was not the primary motive for matrimony.”

Finally, there’s nothing selfless about having children, unless you can somehow guarantee that your kid is going to cure cancer or be the first interstellar pioneer to colonize another solar system. Otherwise, you’re having a kid for you—because you want a child. This is perfectly fine, but let’s be honest about it.

Even if someone does not have “valid” reasons for being hesitant about (or outright opposing) marriage and procreation, you should still respect those views without comment or objection. The validity of the worldview is not the point: the hesitation itself is the point. Many in society—pastors, parents, purveyors of the patriarchy—proselytize endlessly about the importance of the bonds of marriage and the roles of parenthood. So shouldn’t folks think long and hard about whether or not they want to enter into those commitments? Shouldn’t that hesitation be celebrated, not belittled? But, instead, many treat having children like buying lottery tickets: lots of uninformed finger-crossing (with plenty of awkward scratching and dirty fingernails, I assume).

Luckily, there are some positive, confident portrayals of singleness and/or childlessness in films and on television. Mary Albright from 3rd Rock from the Sun. Commander Adama from Battlestar Galactica. Mackenzie McHale from The Newsroom. Poppy Li from Mythic Quest (before the fourth season). Kenneth Parcel from 30 Rock. Elise Atchison, Brenda Cushman, and Annie Paradis from The First Wives Club. And pretty much every single superhero from both Marvel and DC.

But I’ll leave you with one of my favorite portrayals of a confident, single, and childless character—which, incidentally, comes from Parks and Recreation. Not early-seasons April Ludgate or Leslie Knope. I’m talking about Jennifer Barkley.

Yes, I know that the character of Jennifer Barkley reinforces the “heartless” stereotype of the single, childless individual and is a less-than-perfect symbol of my argument. But I can’t resist the comparison: In a world utterly filled with Leslie Knopes and April Ludgates, be bold enough to be a Jennifer Barkley.


Ben Boruff is a co-founder of Big B and Mo’ Money. Read more at BenBoruff.com.

An Analysis of All Visual Media I Experienced for the First Time in 2024

I think about the end of The Cable Guy a lot.

The Cable Guy is a 1996 dark comedy about an unstable cable installer played by Jim Carrey. As a kid, I didn’t think much of the movie. I felt claustrophobic watching it. Directed by Ben Stiller and produced by Judd Apatow, The Cable Guy showcases the psyche of a guy who refuses to respect his new friend’s personal space. It’s like What About Bob? (1991) with violence and a trip to Medieval Times. Or like Alfonso Cuarón’s Gravity (2013) if you replaced the deadly emptiness of space with uncountable copies of your most annoying friend.

But it’s also more than that. The Cable Guy is an examination of our relationships with media. Like Community‘s Abed Nadir, Gilmore Girls‘s Lorelai Gilmore, and The Big Bang Theory‘s Sheldon Cooper, the Cable Guy processes his world through the lens of visual storytelling—i.e. movies, television shows, and video games. Stories aren’t just stories. They’re a roadmap for interacting with others in real life.

At the film’s climactic moment, the Cable Guy holds his friend Steven’s girlfriend hostage at the top of a massive satellite dish. When Steven tries to intervene, the Cable Guy smiles and says, “This is a pretty cool place for an ending . . . It’s like that movie Goldeneye.”

Steven yells back, exasperated, “No, it’s not! It’s not ‘like’ anything! This isn’t a movie. This is reality. There’s a difference!”

Then, silhouetted by the bright lights of a police helicopter and standing at the edge of the multi-story satellite dish, the Cable Guy looks up and yells to the sky:

You were never there for me, were you mother? You expected Mike and Carol Brady to raise me! I’m the bastard son of Claire Huxtable! I am a lost Cunningham! I learned the facts of life from watching The Facts of Life! Oh, God!

Later, in an interview, Jim Carrey noted that The Cable Guy was one of his favorite films and expressed special fondness for the protagonist: “I love that character. That character is all of us: we were all raised by the TV.”

To be clear, none of us should scream about The Brady Bunch on the top of a satellite dish (unless that’s your thing). But there is something compelling about the story of a man who leaned a bit too far into his television-fueled fantasies. Because I think Jim Carrey was right, sort of. With the rise of streaming and the explosion of online content, The Cable Guy‘s message is more relevant now than it was in 1996. Parasocial relationships are common now, and several studies have revealed links between media consumption and perceptions of others. You may not actively think of film scenes when making moral decisions, but research shows that the films and media you watch impact skills like empathy and problem-solving.

I was reminded recently that there is no such thing as mindless scrolling or viewing. Our brains absorb everything we put in front of our eyes, even if it happens in ways we don’t comprehend. So it makes sense that we should analyze the types of media we experience. If the movies and shows I watch impact my perception of the world, I should examine which movies and shows I experience.

Below is an analysis of every movie, television show, video game, and feature-length YouTube video I experienced for the first time in 2024. The data is first, then an analysis, and then a comprehensive list of everything I experienced.

The Data

Of the films I watched for the first time in 2024:

  • 3% are musicals
  • 3% are Westerns
  • 7% are romance films
  • 9% are horror films
  • 9% are animated films
  • 15% are comedies
  • 16% are international (primarily non-US) films
  • 31% are action, thriller, or adventure films
  • 33% are science fiction or fantasy films
  • 33% are films that released in 2024
  • 34% are documentaries
  • 45% feature women protagonists and/or women-driven stories (though only 27% were directed by women)

Of the television show seasons I watched for the first time in 2024:

  • 12% are historical dramas or comedies
  • 16% are reality television shows
  • 27% are animated shows
  • 39% are comedies
  • 40% are science fiction or fantasy shows
  • 47% are dramas (not reality television)
  • 65% feature women protagonists

Analysis

Documentary Film Explosion: In 2019, only 12% of the films I watched were documentaries. In 2018, only 6% were documentaries. In 2024, an impressive 34% of the films I watched for the first time were documentaries. I am not entirely sure why documentary films clicked with me in 2024. Perhaps the increase is the result of a newly fueled desire to remain emotionally and intellectually tethered to the very real and very chaotic happenings on this planet. Perhaps my rate of documentary consumption mirrored my increased interest in podcasts about real-life topics. (I recommend Devil in the Dorm, The Retrievals, The King Road Killings, and White Devil.) Perhaps Brian Cox’s speech from Adaptation (2002) finally sunk in. Whatever the reason, I’m proud of the increased number of documentary films. Surely, there is value in exploring real-life stories. Of all the documentaries I watched this year, these seven stand out: Ballerina (2016), The Waiting Room (2012), The Truth vs. Alex Jones (2024), The Greatest Night in Pop (2024), Bad Faith (2024), Skywalkers: A Love Story (2024), and Cirque du Soleil: Without a Net (2022).

Need for International Films and Non-Male Directors: Most years, my international film exposure plateaus at 15-20%, and 2024 was no exception. Additionally, only 27% of the films I watched were directed by women. Both pieces of data highlight areas of needed improvement. My 2024 movie-watching experience was primarily U.S.-centric and directed by men. Though my percentage of women-directed films (27%) is higher than some national trends—”women accounted for just 16% of directors working on the 250 highest-grossing domestic releases” in 2024, according to Variety—this is nonetheless a percentage that I aim to increase in the future. And I would love to break beyond 20% for international releases in 2025. The good news: according to Axios, “Americans are consuming more foreign content than ever.” I hope this trend continues.

Planting Seeds of Horror, History, and the West: Though horror (9%) and Western (3%) films did not dominate my 2024 movie-viewing experiences, I did watch more than previous years. (I watched notably fewer animated films—just 9%—than previous years. In 2019, animated films were at 16%.) And 12% of my new television show experiences were from the historical fiction genre. This is a mild departure from my usually tunnel-visioned focus on science fiction and fantasy. In 2019, 40% of the films I watched for the first time were science fiction, fantasy, or apocalyptic movies. In 2018, that number was 45%. In 2024, only 33% of the films I watched for the first time were science fiction or fantasy films. Science fiction and fantasy remain my favorite genres, but I find myself branching out more recently, which is exciting. The fact that I watched more documentary films (34%) than science fiction and/or fantasy films (33%) for the first time in 2024 is notably bonkers. I don’t imagine I will ever become a true horror aficionado, but it’s nice to know that my interests are still evolving. And the Western films I watched—particularly Unforgiven (1992), The Quick and the Dead (1995), and The Ballad of Lefty Brown (2017)—were some of my favorite new experiences. Plus, I absolutely loved the historical television dramas Black Sails and Victoria.

Other Observations and Subjective Awards
Movies

Movies I finally watched after years of neglect: Mission: Impossible (1996), Lilo & Stitch (2002), Army of Darkness (1992), and Unforgiven (1992)

Favorite movies released in 2024: It’s What’s Inside, Dune: Part Two, Bad Faith, and Suncoast

Favorite pre-2024 films I watched: Bones and All (2022), John Wick: Chapter 4 (2023), Theater Camp (2023), Anatomy of a Fall (2023), Molli and Max in the Future (2023), Ballerina (2016), The Waiting Room (2012), and Unforgiven (1992)

Film maudit (films “unfairly maligned” by critics): Joker: Folie à Deux (2024) and Trap (2024)

Movies I started with no expectations and found surprisingly good: Hellraiser (2022), Skywalkers: A Love Story (2024), Abigail (2024), and The Wheel (2021).

Movies I started with mid-to-high expectations and found notably disappointing: The Sunset Limited (2011), Queenpins (2021), and Wild Wild Space (2024).

Worst movies watched in 2024: We’re All Going to the World’s Fair (2021), Gentlemen Broncos (2009), Fall (1997), They Called Him Mostly Harmless (2024), Borderlands (2024), and My Old School (2022).

Television Shows

Favorite shows and seasons: Twilight of the Gods (S1), Dune: Prophecy (S1), Black Sails (S1, S2, S3, S4), Hazbin Hotel (S1), Industry (S3), Peacemaker (S1), Fallout (S1), and Survivor (S26).

Seasons that were almost brilliant but not quite there: The Decameron (S1) and The Penguin (S1)

Not blown away but will probably continue watching: The Franchise and All of Us Are Dead.

Disappointing seasons: House of the Dragon (S2)

Video Games

Favorite games beat in 2024: Disco Elysium, Baldur’s Gate 3, Super Mario Odyssey, and The Quarry

Games with the best music: Disco Elysium and The Outer Worlds

Games with the best character-driven stories: Disco Elysium, Baldur’s Gate 3, Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic II: The Sith Lords, and Cyberpunk 2077

Most played genres for the first time in 2024: RPG, choices-matter, and action/adventure

YouTube

Most-watched creators in 2024: Willjum, Jake Doubleyoo, ReksMore Adventures, MARCUSK, and ambiguousamphibian

Complete Lists of All Media Experienced in 2024 Are Below

LIST OF FILMS WATCHED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2024

The Platform (2019) dir. Galder Gaztelu-Urrutia
The First Purge (2018) dir. Gerard McMurray
Aquaman and the Lost Kingdom (2023) dir. James Wan
Ted (2012) dir. Seth MacFarlane
Ted 2 (2015) dir. Seth MacFarlane
Wonka (2023) dir. Paul King
John Wick: Chapter 2 (2017) dir. Chad Stahelski
John Wick: Chapter 3—Parabellum (2019) dir. Chad Stahelski
John Wick: Chapter 4 (2023) dir. Chad Stahelski
The Lady Vanishes (1938) dir. Alfred Hitchcock
The Bleeding Edge (2018) dir. Kirby Dick
Crazy, Not Insane (2020) dir. Alex Gibney
The Marvels (2023) dir. Nia DaCosta
Mission: Impossible (1996) dir. Brian De Palma
Mission: Impossible II (2000) dir. John Woo
In the Shadow of the Moon (2019) dir. Jim Mickle
Life (2017) dir. Daniel Espinosa
Poisoned: The Dirty Truth About Your Food (2023) dir. Stephanie Soechtig
Coded Bias (2020) dir. Shalini Kantayya
Mister Organ (2022) dir. David Farrier
Boys State (2020) dir Jesse Moss, Amanda McBaine
Miller’s Girl (2024) dir. Jade Halley Bartlett
Hellraiser (2022) dir. David Bruckner
Spaceman (2024) dir. Johan Renck
Next Goal Wins (2023) dir. Taika Waititi
Last Knights (2015) dir. Kazuaki Kiriya
Hellraiser (1987) dir. Clive Barker
Dune: Part Two (2024) dir. Denis Villeneuve
The Last Voyage of the Demeter (2023) dir. André Øvredal
Ballerina (2016) dir. Douglas Watkin
The Zone of Interest (2023) dir. Jonathan Glazer
Queenpins (2021) dir. Aron Gaudet, Gita Pullapilly
The Secret Life of the Cruise (2018) dir. Ben Ryder
Nintendo Quest: The Most Unofficial and Unauthorized Nintendo Documentary Ever! (2015) dir. Rob McCallum
Hell of a Cruise (2022) dir. by Nick Quested
Solitary: Inside Red Onion State Prison (2016) dir. Kristi Jacobson
The Anthrax Attacks: In the Shadow of 9/11 (2022) dir. Dan Krauss
The Waiting Room (2012) dir. Peter Nicks
The Last Tourist (2021) dir. Tyson Sadler
Pharma Bro (2021) dir. Brent Hodge
Persona: The Dark Truth Behind Personality Tests (2021) dir. Tim Travers Hawkins
WeWork: Or The Making and Breaking of a $47 Billion Unicorn (2021) dir. Jed Rothstein
Brandy Hellville & the Cult of Fast Fashion (2024) dir. Eva Orner
BS High (2023) dir. Travon Free, Martin Desmond Roe
15 Minutes of Shame (2021) dir. Max Joseph
American Pain (2022) dir. Darren Foster
The Truth vs. Alex Jones (2024) dir. Dan Reed
Rebel Moon – Part Two: The Scargiver (2024) dir. Zack Snyder
The Cold Blue (2018) dir. Erik Nelson
Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part One (2024) dir. Jeff Wamester
God Forbid: The Sex Scandal That Brought Down a Dynasty (2022) dir. Billy Corben
A Compassionate Spy (2022) dir. Steve James
Enemies of the State (2020) dir. Sonia Kennebeck
After Truth: Disinformation and the Cost of Fake News (2020) dir. Andrew Rossi
Hans Zimmer: Hollywood Rebel (2022) dir. Francis Hanly
Hellboy II: The Golden Army (2008) dir. Guillermo del Toro
Triangle of Sadness (2022) dir. Ruben Östlund
The Greatest Night in Pop (2024) dir. Bao Nguyen
The Final: Attack on Wembley (2024) dir. Robert Miller, Kwabena Oppong
What Jennifer Did (2024) dir. Jenny Popplewell
Challengers (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino
My Old School (2022) dir. Jono McLeod
Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga (2024) dir. George Miller
Butterfly in the Sky: The Story of Reading Rainbow (2022) dir. Bradford Thomason
MoviePass, MovieCrash (2024) dir. Muta’Ali
Theater Camp (2023) dir. Molly Gordon, Nick Lieberman
Civil War (2024) dir. Alex Garland
Love Lies Bleeding (2024) dir. Rose Glass
Boy Kills World (2023) dir. Moritz Mohr
Outstanding: A Comedy Revolution (2024) dir. Page Hurwitz
Hate to Love: Nickelback (2023) dir. Leigh Brooks
They Called Him Mostly Harmless (2024) dir. Patricia E. Gillespie
The Croods (2013) dir. Chris Sanders, Kirk DeMicco
Lilo & Stitch (2002) dir. Chris Sanders, Dean DeBlois
Time Bomb Y2K (2023) dir. Marley McDonald, Brian Becker
The Croods: A New Age (2020) dir. Joel Crawford
Bad Faith (2024) dir. Stephen Ujlaki, Chris Jones
IF (2024) dir. John Krasinski
The Sunset Limited (2011) dir. Tommy Lee Jones
Wish (2023) dir. Chris Buck, Fawn Veerasunthorn
The Ministry of Ungentlemanly Warfare (2024) dir. Guy Ritchie
Inside Out 2 (2024) dir. Kelsey Mann
Wild Wild Space (2024) dir. Ross Kauffman
Skywalkers: A Love Story (2024) dir. Jeff Zimbalist, Maria Bukhonina
Bones and All (2022) dir. Luca Guadagnino
Molli and Max in the Future (2023) dir. Michael Lukk Litwak
Cirque du Soleil: Without a Net (2022) dir. Dawn Porter
A Quiet Place: Day One (2024) dir. Michael Sarnoski
Sorry/Not Sorry (2023) dir. Cara Mones, Caroline Suh
Deadpool & Wolverine (2024) dir. Shawn Levy
Touch (2011) dir. Minh Duc Nguyen
Trap (2024) dir. M. Night Shyamalan
Fall (1997) dir. Eric Schaeffer
BookendS (2016) dir. Delavega
Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Two (2024) dir. Jeff Wamester
Justice League: Crisis on Infinite Earths – Part Three (2024) dir. Jeff Wamester
Solomon Kane (2009) dir. M.J. Bassett
Borderlands (2024) dir. Eli Roth
Suncoast (2024) dir. Laura Chinn
Coup! (2023) dir. Austin Stark, Joseph Schuman
Army of Darkness (1992) dir. Sam Raimi
Gentlemen Broncos (2009) dir. Jared Hess
Uprising (2024) dir. Kim Sang-man
Lux Æterna (2019) dir. Gaspar Noé
The Quick and the Dead (1995) dir. Sam Raimi
Kung Fu Panda 4 (2024) dir. Mike Mitchell
Sleep Call (2023) dir. Fajar Nugros
Girls State (2024) dir. Amanda McBaine, Jesse Moss
We’re All Going to the World’s Fair (2021) dir. Jane Schoenbrun
It’s What’s Inside (2024) dir. Greg Jardin
Fat Girl (2001) dir. Catherine Breillat
Overlord (2018) dir. Julius Avery
Land of Bad (2024) dir. William Eubank
Attack the Block (2011) dir. Joe Cornish
Despicable Me 4 (2024) dir. Chris Renaud, Patrick Delage
Abigail (2024) dir. Matt Bettinelli-Olpin, Tyler Gillett
Chris Brown: A History of Violence (2024) dir. Investigation Discovery
Unforgiven (1992) dir. Clint Eastwood
The Ballad of Lefty Brown (2017) dir. Jared Moshe
3:10 to Yuma (2007) dir. James Mangold
Rumours (2024) dir. Guy Maddin, Evan Johnson, Galen Johnson
Wicked (2024) dir. Jon M. Chu
Conclave (2024) dir. Edward Berger
Dream Scenario (2023) dir. Kristoffer Borgli
Buy Now! The Shopping Conspiracy (2024) dir. Nic Stacey
Joker: Folie à Deux (2024) dir. Todd Phillips
Ice Age: Continental Drift (2012) dir. Steve Martino, Michael Thurmeier
Anatomy of a Fall (2023) dir. Justine Triet
Transformers One (2024) dir. Josh Cooley
Child Star (2024) dir. Demi Lovato, Nicola Marsh
Noelle (2019) dir. Marc Lawrence
Nomadland (2020) dir. Chloé Zhao
The Wheel (2021) dir. Steve Pink
Stars at Noon (2022) dir. Claire Denis
Carry-On (2024) dir. Jaume Collet-Serra
Prey (2022) dir. Dan Trachtenberg
Lou (2022) dir. Anna Foester

LIST OF TV SHOW SEASONS WATCHED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 2024

Peacemaker, S1
Survivor, S25, S26, S29, S36, S38, S39, S45, S47
Miracle Workers, S3, S4
Industry, S2, S3
Archer, S14
Hazbin Hotel, S1
Rick and Morty, S7
South Side, S2
Abbott Elementary, S2
Invincible, S2
Gary and His Demons, S1, S2
Bob’s Burgers, S13
Fallout, S1
Star Trek: Discovery, S5
Blood of Zeus, S2
Black Sails, S1, S2, S3, S4
Tires, S1
The Boys, S4
House of the Dragon, S2
Kite Man: Hell Yeah!, S1
The Decameron, S1
Angie Tribeca, S1
Victoria, S1
ER, S10, S11
Solar Opposites, S5
All of Us Are Dead, S1
Very Important People, S1
Boldly Going Nowhere, Unaired Pilot
The Penguin, S1
Twilight of the Gods, S1
The Legend of Vox Machina, S3
The Franchise, S1
Arcane, S2
Dune: Prophecy, S1
Secret Level, S1

LIST OF VIDEO GAMES BEAT IN 2024

Super Mario Odyssey (Nintendo Switch) – beat
Disco Elysium (Nintendo Switch) – beat: Sorry Cop; Recruit Detective Kim Kitsuragi
Rust (Xbox) – “beat” i.e. defended medium solo base against multi-player rocket raid
Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic II: The Sith Lords (Nintendo Switch) – beat
Far Cry 5 (Xbox) – beat
Fallout: New Vegas (Xbox) – beat: Yes Man independent New Vegas ending
Dragon’s Dogma: Dark Arisen (Nintendo Switch) – beat
Fallout 3 (Xbox) – beat: good karma; Fawkes hero ending
Slay the Princess (PC) – beat: “Through Conflict” and “There are no endings” ending
The Coffin of Andy and Leyley (PC) – beat: ep. 1, 2
Skyrim (Xbox) – beat: Alduin and Stormcloak questlines
The Quarry (Xbox) – beat: RIP Laura, Ryan, Jacob; (Kaitlyn survived, which was literally all I cared about)
The Dark Pictures: Man of Medan (Xbox) – beat: everybody survived
West of Loathing (Nintendo Switch) – beat
Gears 5 (Xbox) – beat
Borderlands (Xbox) – beat
Far Cry Primal (Xbox) – beat
Baldur’s Gate 3 (PC) – beat: Shadowheart left Shar; killed Raphael; freed Orpheus; Ceremorphosis; destroyed the Netherbrain; went to Avernus with Karlach to save her life; go-to team Lae’zel, Wyll, Gale
Borderlands 2 (Xbox) – beat
The Outer Worlds (Xbox) – beat: Welles ending; Adelaide McDevitt replaced Reed Tobson; sided with Halcyon Helen; established peace; saved Phineas; became leader
Cyberpunk 2077 (Xbox) – beat: left Night City with the Aldecaldos

YOUTUBE VIDEOS (VIDEOS & VIDEO ESSAYS OVER 45 MINUTES AND/OR OF NOTABLE QUALITY) WATCHED IN 2024

Rust’s most DANGEROUS Motel: The Last Stop” by ReksMore Adventures
The Complete Existential Adventures of Gerald Williams” by ambiguousamphibian
1000 Players Simulate Civilization on Survival Islands” by MARCUSK
100 Players Rebuild Civilization in a Nuclear Winter” by MARCUSK
Netflix’s Resident Evil Was a Disaster” by John Wolfe
The Second Punic War – Oversimplified (Part 1)” by Oversimplified
The Second Punic War – Oversimplified (Part 2)” by Oversimplified
The Worst King in English History?” by Drawn of History
Greek Mythology Explained (COMPILATION #1)” by Jake Doubleyoo
Norse Mythology Explained (COMPILATION #1)” by Jake Doubleyoo
Greek Mythology Explained (COMPILATION #2)” by Jake Doubleyoo
I made a NOT SO SafeZone In Rust” by ReksMore Adventures
The Absolute Chaos of Halo Infinite” by big boss
How an 18th Century Sailing Battleship Works” by Animagraffs
Games you can never play again.” by The Cursed Judge
I built a Sky base in Vanilla Rust…” by Willjum
Two Solos Build a hidden underground bunker in Official Rust…” by Willjum
I Lived on a Survival Island for 24 Hours in Rust…” by Willjum
I Built the smallest Solo Factory in Rust…” by Willjum
1000 Players, 1 Server: How a Solo PRO Survives on Official Rust” by Willjum
I hired the worlds best solo to play Rust.. (1 million sub special)” by Willjum
I Built a base under the biggest clan in Rust.. (Ft. Aloneintokyo)” by Willjum
When 2 Pros Vs an Army in Rust..” by Willjum
The Decline of Tim Burton” by Broey Deschanel
Entertainment Made By Cults” by Paper Will
The Ugly Side of Kids TV” by Paper Will
I Built the most high IQ duo base in Official Rust..” by Willjum
I rebuilt my Overpowered Fortress in 100 Hours of Rust…” by Willjum
I Built the ONLY Starter Base you’ll ever need in Rust…” by Willjum
I Lost Everything in Rust …” by Willjum
I played a solo only rust server for a week and this is what happened” by spoonkid2
I Built an Unraidable Cave base in Vanilla Rust..” by Willjum
I Unleashed a Swarm of Huntsman Spiders Into My Giant Rainforest Vivarium” by AntsCanada
I Built an Automatic Base that Defends ITSELF in Rust” by Willjum
We Built a mountain fortress in the Sky on Official Rust..” by Willjum
A Mantis Mating Disaster & Crisis in My Giant Rainforest Vivarium” by AntsCanada
I Played 100 Hours of Rust against the 3 Greatest Solos…” by Willjum
I Built the Greatest Rust Fortress against 3 Solo PROS” by Willjum
I created a village in Rust” by ReksMore Adventures
The Biggest War in Rust History” by Yexom
We Built on the LARGEST Official Server In Rust – ft Blooprint” by Willjum
We Built the GREATEST rock base in Official Rust.. Ft Blooprint” by Willjum
How the Most OP squad plays Rust – Ft. Stevie, Snuffy & Sinks” by Willjum
The BEST Rust experience in my 8000 hours..” by Willjum
Games with empty worlds.” by The Cursed Judge
Games that hate the player.” by The Cursed Judge
Pokémon sent me to Japan!” by JaidenAnimations
FOR THE EMPIRE: SEASON ONE – A Star Wars parody created with Unreal Engine 5” by AFK
FOR THE EMPIRE: SEASON TWO – A Star Wars parody created with Unreal Engine 5” by AFK
NEVER Go To The Unknown Regions – Star Wars Lore Video Compilation” by The Stupendous Wave
Max Payne… 16 Years Later” by Raycevick
Max Payne 2: The Fall of Max Payne… 14 Years Later” by Raycevick
Every Witcher KILLED by Geralt of Rivia │ Witcher Explained” by Neon Knight
Rimworld, The Complete Desert Survival Run (Condensed Series)” by ambiguousamphibian
Black Adam: How the Rock Tried to Take Over DC” by Edward Rigby
I Trapped 100 Players in the Project Zomboid Mall” by Harvest
How a 16th Century Explorer’s Sailing Ship Works” by Animagraffs
1000 Players Simulate Civilization in Rust” by FancyOrb
I Turned My Bar Into a Trap Base During the End of Civilization” by ReksMore Adventures
We don’t talk about Fight Club: Rust Edition” by ReksMore Adventures
We built a Ninja Dojo on Official Rust” by ReksMore Adventures
Why does Madame Web’s dialogue sound so weird?” by Nando v Movies
Edward Norton: the most Complicated Actor of his Generation” by Hollywood Lore
BORDERLANDS DIED TWICE” by Frogwater
I Built a solo stronghold hidden in the clouds…” by Willjum
I built an impossible solo base in vanilla rust…” by Willjum
How a Solo with 11,362 Hours plays Vanilla Rust…” by Willjum
I Played Official Rust against the 4 Greatest Solos in the world…” by Willjum
A Solo Farmer Vs 4 Rust Pros… Who will survive?” by Willjum
The Fall of the 5 Solo… Rust Movie” by Willjum
1000 Players Simulate Civilization Across Dimensions” by MARCUSK
We lived in a cube ft. Spoonkid” by ZChum Extra
I Built an unraidable Sky fortress in Vanilla Rust…” by Willjum
How The Olympics Almost Banned This Shoe” by Cleo Abram


Ben Boruff is a co-founder of Big B and Mo’ Money. Read more at BenBoruff.com.

Bones & All, Earthlings, and the Art of Anti-Othering

Trigger warning: Some of the stories discussed contain sensitive content.

Years ago, per a recommendation, I read Earthlings by Sayaka Murata. I have not been able to get it out of my mind since.

I’ve seen reviews that call Earthlings “bizarre” and “off,” but those words do little to represent the novel’s startling content. Murata’s epic story of an unconventional girl-turned-woman who believes that she may be an alien from another planet contains [trigger warnings and mild spoilers] instances of child abuse, incest, and cannibalism, among other things. Any Stephen King novel could be described as a bit “bizarre”; Murata’s book is something else entirely. A Goodreads review by a user named Robin offers an effective explanation:

If I try to explain what happens in the plot, I will sound insane. And it is. The plot is outrageous and over the top – the oppression, the abuse, and then the equally shocking response to it. It’s wild, fearless, and what makes it even stranger is that it’s told in this completely simple, straightforward, conversational tone. It draws you in, with the ease of a YA novel. You almost think, hey, this is about 11 year old kids. I’m not that interested. But don’t be fooled… it’s about to get about as dark and twisted as your worst nightmare.

And Earthlings isn’t the only Murata-written tale to accomplish this: Sayaka Murata’s slightly less extreme novel Convenience Story Woman (which I read immediately after Earthlings) shares many themes. Wired‘s Thu-Huong Ha describes the plot of the story:

[Convenience Store Woman] is told from the perspective of Keiko, a 36-year-old woman who has never had sex or held a real job and has no particular interest in either. The romance between Keiko and her place of employment is oddly moving, as is her quiet bewilderment over purpose and personhood. Keiko is happy and content, but her family worries about her. To get them off her back, she starts a sham relationship with a misogynistic coworker with whom she shares a mutual loathing. Though the reality is horrible, the setup appears conventional. Her family is thrilled.

In both stories, antagonists are everywhere, but the accusatory fingers of the narratives are pointed primarily at society—or, more specifically, at the “machine of society,” as Keiko says. Keiko (the protagonist of Convenience Store Woman) and Natsuki (the protagonist of Earthlings) are both extreme outcasts, either actively resisting societal norms or consciously mimicking them to the point of unintentional parody in attempts to avoid confrontation. And let’s be clear, Keiko and Natsuki are not outcasts in the same way as your awkward friend or your cousin who wears only black: Keiko and Natsuki are fundamentally at odds with the acceptable systems of the world. In many scenes, Keiko and Natsuki can’t even see the Overton window of societal norms—it’s too far away. Keiko and Natsuki make Holden Caulfield look like Harry Potter.

That’s the point, in part. Sayaka Murata has described wanting “to write from the perspective of someone who defied conventional thinking, particularly in a conformist society where people are expected to fulfill preordained roles.” Like a less troublesome version of Flannery O’Connor, Murata forces her readers to look deep into the eyes of individuals who categorically do not have a place in traditionally organized society (or “The Factory,” as Natsuki calls it). She holds the strange and the uncomfortable in front of our face, and she dares us to find something to appreciate.

Sayaka Nurata’s anti-society, anti-othering messages are crucial today. Luckily for us, Nurata is not the only artist who is making this commentary.

Bones and All, a romantic horror film from Luca Guadagnino (director of Suspiria and Challengers), echoes the anti-orthodox themes of Earthlings. Even on the surface, the similarities are apparent: both stories contain child abuse, cannibalism, and more. But deeper into the narrative is where the value lies. The protagonist of the film is Maren Yearly, a cannibalistic teenager who finds herself alone in the world. After Maren’s unnatural proclivities cause her father to leave, she finds herself drawn to a young man and fellow cannibal named Lee.

In Bones and All, cannibals are portrayed as a marginalized group, similar to how vampires are portrayed in popular media like Twilight and Baldur’s Gate 3: some are bad and some are good—but all are misunderstood. The cannibals’ need to feed is not quite like TV’s Dexter and his “dark passenger” that makes him kill criminals: Dexter’s desires are singular, focused, and able to be manipulated for good, unlike the cannibalistic nature of Maren and Lee. The cannibalism of Bones and All cannot be used for good: it can only be managed and understood. It is more of an identity than a temptation. In the film, all cannibals seem to be social outcasts, and most of them are aggressively cynical about society. But their cynicism is nuanced. Director Luca Guadagnino and writer David Kajganich refuse to clearly articulate the cause-and-effect relationship. Is the cynicism a result of their ostracization due to cannibalism? Or do they have other reasons for distrusting society?

And in the face of that muddy, bloody mess exists a remarkably sensitive and compelling romance—a notable M&M of positivity among the raisin-filled trail mix of death and systemic marginalization. Many viewers will find their attention drifting toward the romance and away from the horror. In other words, the film humanizes the teenage cannibals.

Robin, the Goodreads user from before, has more to say about the horrific whimsy of Earthlings‘ Natsuki, and this excerpt explains the positivity that can arise after placing wholly uncomfortable situations in front of the faces of audience members:

It’s freaky because as crazy as the main characters’ actions seem, I supported them. Why? Because living in “The Factory” – society – isn’t easy. Don’t you ever feel like an alien? I sure as hell do. Don’t you ever feel like you’d rather die than conform to what is expected of you? Or if you do, doesn’t it feel like a slow death? “The Factory” is often propagated most by those closest to us. I lived this way, so you need to, too. This is what you do now, and this is what you do next, and there’s no room for you if you don’t. There’s no room in the factory for individuality. For those healing from scars or trauma. For those who have a unique-to-them path. Murata’s characters make room. This story is told vastly outside the box. And I love it because of that.

It’s easy to be kind to outcasts when the “outcasts” you talk to are fairly ordinary. If your “outcast” sounds like Mean Girls‘ Janis, Superbad‘s Fogell, or James Dean from Rebel Without a Cause, are you really even talking to an outcast? All of those characters, while regrettably marginalized or shunned to a degree, still function effectively within the traditional structures of society. Writer Sayaka Murata and director Luca Guadagnino challenge us to look even further into the dark corners of society. Don’t just look for the person who is sitting alone in the room—look for the person who’s not even in the building. And then see if your supposedly welcoming and open-minded mentality still holds up.

Can you look into the eyes of those who reject everything about your societal norms and comforts? And can you do so without blinking?

Can you look at Keiko and Natsuki and Maren and Lee and see a human being worthy of love and acceptance?

There is a line, of course. Not all behaviors are acceptable. (It should go without saying: cannibalism is bad.) As John Oliver said, “The answer to ‘where you draw the line’ is literally always ‘somewhere.’ You draw it somewhere.” And then if you learn new information and need to redraw your line, you redraw your line.

The value of anti-othering art like Earthlings and Bones and All—the type of art that forces you to look at the strangest of society—is that it challenges us to evaluate where we have drawn our lines. Neither Murata nor Guadagnino wants you to appreciate cannibalism. But they do want you to consider why you might be shunning real-life individuals as if they were cannibals.

P.S. There’s so much more to say about these types of anti-othering stories. A (capital “R”) Romantic reading of Earthlings and Convenience Store Woman, for example, would note Murata’s use of mechanical imagery when describing the operations of society. Romantic-era thinkers celebrated individualism, natural beauty, and imagination over the “experience” of the industrialized world. Also, John Steinbeck’s Of Mice and Men could contribute to some of these ideas. Earthlings, Bones and All, and Of Mice and Men all feature aggressively marginalized characters—and all three stories qualify as tragedies. That is certainly worth dissecting.


Ben Boruff is a co-founder of Big B and Mo’ Money. Read more at BenBoruff.com.

The Supremely Important Moral of Disney’s Wish

2023’s Wish is an unfocused, poorly crafted film, but it contains one of Disney’s most important messages.

A line from Ethan Hawke’s The Hottest State summarizes a nearly universal struggle: “. . . when you’re a kid, everyone, all the world, encourages you to follow your dreams. But when you’re older, somehow they act offended if you even try.” We all know this to be true. Think back to your elementary school experience. Remember the kids who wanted to explore astronomy and self-expression and art. The kids who wanted to change the world. Remember the parents and teachers and inspirational speakers who told you to shoot for the stars. They told you that you could be anything you wanted to be. They told you to dream big. The you-can-do-anything rhetoric was everywhere. It was inescapable.

Now, try to pinpoint the moment when people stopped telling you to dream big. For many of us, it was in high school around the time we started applying for colleges and jobs. Our well-intentioned guardians and counselors began to steer us toward practicality. They didn’t condemn our dreams at first; no, they suggested small adjustments to account for their perceptions of possibility. “Put it off for just a year.” “You can do that just as a hobby for now.” “At least have a backup plan.” “Try this first.” So we began to make concessions—small at first, perhaps, but the concessions grew. In size and number. We slowly chipped away at our once big, star-focused dreams until they became bite-sized—until they became something our mentors could digest comfortably.

This is a common story. But why? Are parents and teachers lying to elementary students about their potential? Are big dreams simply fables we tell kids—like Santa Clause or the Tooth Fairy—to add a bit of fabricated excitement into their young lives? Or do guardians genuinely believe in lofty ambitions but second-guess themselves as their children grow up—so they instinctively fall back to the Alamo of digestible mediocrity?

Wish offers an answer: Big dreams are difficult and complicated. Life is simpler—and perhaps even happier at times—without them.

This is the initial motivation of Magnifico, Wish‘s villain. Magnifico’s characterization gets muddied as the film progresses—his intentions become less nuanced after the film’s first act—but his opening scenes offer a fascinating take on the reality of ambition. During his first interactions with Asha, the film’s young and admirably wide-eyed protagonist, Magnifico explains that people move to his city because they “can’t make their own dreams come true: the journey’s too hard, it is too unfair.” When Asha wonders if the citizens could try controlling their own destinies, Magnifico dismisses her supposed naivete: “Well, you’re young. You don’t know anything, really.”

Some background: King Magnifico is a sorcerer who created the kingdom of Rosas on an island in the Mediterranean Sea and promised happiness and prosperity to his citizens as long as each new citizen gave their wish (dream) to him. Citizens do not remember their abandoned wishes. Once a month, Magnifico grants the wish of a citizen. This monthly ceremony is widely celebrated until Asha learns that Magnifico has no desire to grant certain wishes.

Hidden within that plot is Magnifico’s genuine desire to help his citizens: “You’ve completely missed the point. . . . They give their wishes to me, willingly, and I make it so they forget their worries.” In the scene following that line, two new arrivals willingly give their wishes to Magnifico. “It’s a real weight off, isn’t it?” Magnifico says. And in the early stages of the film, Asha’s own grandfather echo’s Magnifico’s sentiments, growing angry when Asha tries to give him back a dream that he knows will likely not come true.

When Magnifico sings his part of “At All Costs,” then, he is not attempting to deceive Asha: he sincerely believes that he is protecting the dreams (and, by extension, the dreamers) from the harshness of reality. When he sings, “I will protect you at all costs / Keep you safe here in my arms,” he is expressing a desire to shelter his citizens from their own ambitions. Their dreams are beautiful, but their dreams are also dangerous. So, according to Magnifico, it’s better if the wishes are locked away and forgotten.

Ignore the last half of the film for a moment and consider how much this perception of Magnifico resembles the guardians, teachers, counselors, and friends who suggested that you change, alter, adapt, or delay your dreams. They wanted what is best for you, but they defined “best” in the context of predictability and practicality. Your dreams were beautiful, but they were also difficult and complicated. So they nudged you consistently toward a more simplistically blissful existence.

“It’s a real weight off, isn’t it?” they may have said when you passively took their advice.

But remember: Magnifico is the villain.

Wish argues (somewhat incoherently) that all individuals deserve the opportunity to follow their dreams—no matter how difficult, complicated, impractical, or unpredictable they may be. Wish asserts that robbing someone of that opportunity is an act of villainy. (Side note: This topic is complex: many individuals have obligations and circumstances that necessitate adaptation. And many guardians, teachers, and others are attempting to compassionately steer loved ones away from likely heartache. Caring for someone else is not easy. But when that love keeps someone from exploring their passions, it becomes problematic.)

The importance of this message cannot be overstated. We exist amid an epidemic of dreamlessness fueled by misguided pragmatism, and it will not get better until we face some hard truths. Well-intentioned or not, persuading someone to abandon or castrate their dream is regrettable. Consider this poem from Langston Hughes:

Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.

Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

Lofty ambitions are essential to life. Without them, we are not us. Without them, we have lost something that helps define who we are (i.e. a flightless bird or a barren field). Despite its thematic inconsistencies, Wish does a wonderful job of depicting this loss.

So what do we do? We push back. Following your dreams is not as simple as making a choice: it requires daily attention and energy. It’s like swimming upstream against a raging river—forever. Magnifico was right: dreams are a troublesome business. It’s much easier to forget them. So if you want to follow yours, you have to fight consciously and actively to keep them.

In Wish, the spirit of this fight is embodied by the song “Knowing What I Know Now.” As they sing, Asha and her friends prepare to challenge Magnifico and retrieve their dreams. The lyrics acknowledge the possibility of failure (“And who, who knows if we’ll succeed?”) while reinforcing the drive to try (“But we / Won’t stop and we won’t retreat or turn ’round”). In this way, “Knowing What I Know Now” operates as a Disney version of Dylan Thomas’s “Do Not Go Gentle into That Good Night“: it reminds us that dreams should not be given up easily.

Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.


Ben Boruff is a co-founder of Big B and Mo’ Money. Read more at BenBoruff.com.

Top Movies of 2018: Mo’ Money’s Picks

Below are Mo’ Money’s top films of 2018 only including films that premiered anywhere in the world in the calendar year.

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2018 was a great year for me, but one way that it really shone was all the great movies I was able to access via streaming and physical media. My war against theaters continues, and yet I was able to see 57 movies that premiered in 2018 including a number of independent Midwestern productions. While I missed a lot of films that only played in festivals or haven’t released in the United States yet, and my list may change over the years, I believe the following movies are great and worth watching if you can access them. Continue reading